Thursday, July 29, 2010

Enough is Enough! I need to take time and be oh- so grateful. My life is so incredibly blessed that I am going to chose to take a couple free minutes and express some serious graditude.

My life is so awesome.

My sisters. My 2 sisters who live in Ohio (I still think that is so random!) I adore them so much. I need to be better to them. My dear Lindy Loo has had trail after trial in this last little bit. She moved from OK, to Ohio, she had twins 2 weeks before the move. That’s enough to send me over the edge (let alone the birth story). THEN, they couldn’t find a house so her and her 5 kids and hubby are living in a hotel. Her Hubby starts a new job (shout out), and the ac in the hotel goes out! My sister gets a kidney infection and is hospitalized. My other sister takes her 3 kids to the hotel to help with the other 5 kids. That’s a total of 8 Children in 1 hotel room. And I’m not helping anyone cause I’m playing gaga games in Utah (time off work is a whole other issue). Then after all this her little boys eyes start crossing. My niece Abby had eye crossing issues and many surgeries followed the crossing. This is when they lived out in Houston, and I usually made it to the surgeries. Now, being an adult and having a job it pains me that I can’t be there for little Alex. Growing up SUCKS.

What would I do if I had a million dollars? I’d fly to Ohio and watch my sisters babies so she could have a nap. Literally, that’s what I would do. THEN, I would go to my other friends house and help babysit, and then I would go to my other friends house and sit with her while she recovers, THEN I’d fly to Ecuador and give my nephew a big wet kiss (on the cheek-y)… So much to do, and so little resources to do it with.

I have the best boyfriend; so cute, so fun, so just right for me. A year ago today I would not have believed if someone would have told me the greatness I would be in a relationship with. He is a giant, and “wise beyond his years.” We’ve got issues, but I’d say we are a winning team and more than 90% of the time we are apart I just want to be with him. I’d say those are pretty good numbers.

I have such good friends. Seriously good friends. Let’s say Mal in specific and a few other Shout outs. It’s tough when life changes and things are unexpected. Adjustments are hard. I’m grateful for friends who believe and have the faith that I do, it makes changes easier, and the common goal clear. I love them, regaurdless of the time I can invest in them.

Which brings me to my next point. I LOVE LOVE my Long – far away friends. Amanada, Lind’s, Virg. All of whom I need to be better to. Amanda, who just had surgery, Lind’s who just had twins, and Virg who had a baby also. These friends of mine always focus the conversation on me and continually give to me emotionally. It’s like my own fountain of endless support. I love that there are people you can walk away from and not see for literally years, but for some reason when you see each other, it’s like no time passed.

And then, My nephews. My perfect, sweet, angel boys of nephews. They make my Mondays worth living… Jason doesn’t have as much time to email as Josh, and we’ve had some intimate emails that I adore. He is truly being Shaped and formed to what the lord would have him become. It’s fun to watch, but at the same time any one who has been shaped and formed knows its painful and really hard. It’s hard to watch. I can’t imagine how Heavenly Father feels. Horrible, helpless, but excited feeling all at the same time.

All of these would- haves and should haves between the BBq’s with mister perfection and family stuff, and days with the nieces, and and and. Seems like it’s never ending. I sometimes feel so torn with all the should be’s that need to get done. I’m pretty sure it’s pretty normal to feel like that, however doesn’t make it any easier. I’ve ordered a Covey refill to some how soften the blow of craziness. Heaven bless Steven for his awesome invention.

PS. Pictures are to come... Derrek has the camera!

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