more.

I’m going to is my buddy VIRG in like 2 days, I’m flying to AZ on the same day, I get to see my sweet Nephews and Niece in AZ and I’m meeting up with a BOY. I’M SO EXCITED.

On the other hand… I’m so freaking stressed about work. I have to cram the weeks work in a matter of days.

I’m getting a stress sty on my Eye… and I haven’t really had time to eat well, I wanted to Diet. And I wanted to get a massage and I also wanted a fresh highlights… it’s been busy.

My sister Ceri is taking over my time with my Stylist, I really can’t miss the 3 hours of work tomorrow, which is awesome for her! (every girl needs a good stylist.)

I really want to go back to school… like really really.

Why can’t I just be happy where I am? I always want more- which is awesome but also bugs. My parents always said to me they couldn’t keep up with all the crazy things I want to do and all the directions I’m going… The thing is- why isn’t it ok to do everything? Don’t get me wrong I’m loving work, (ok there are those days) and I love down town SLC… the U law school is really hard to get into. I know I would be so good in law school. I think everyone can agree once I decide to do something I usually rock at it. I just have to make the decision to do it.

So my brain is so torn. I feel like a certain “life calling” to get into immigration law/ family law. How cool would it be to represent families torn by laws that are made as a one size fits all. I think the immigrants in this country are under represented. The median income for an immigration attorney is 98,000… which wouldn’t even be enough to pay back the loans. The leading cities in need of legal immigration representation Hendersen, NV; Boulder, CO; New York, NY. Any of those cities are not close enough to my family, and living close to my family has actually been quite enjoyable. On the other hand if I went into Family Law and specialized in immigration issues I could get right in the middle of the nasty divorces (oh yeah!!!) and make the real money while working on legislation reform on the side.

On the other hand I don’t even know if I’ll be able to get into Law school. I’m scared that if I try and get rejected too terribly much- I will be SO crushed and like clinically depressed. It’s almost safer to not do it- cause then you can’t get told how lame you are.

The thing is, if I’m going to work as hard as I’m working now shouldn’t I be doing something I’m passionate about? Three years of school is not that much more, and think of the long term results.

Pray and fast, and pray some more J


This week I also had an amazing experience. I work very closely with 2 guys that left the church. One left while he was on his mission and the other left after 40 yrs of membership (mission, bishop, sons on missions, etc.) I’m usually good about minding my own business and working but they ganged up on my butt and nailed me pretty seriously.

I’ve been struggling now days anyways… I was so upset.

So all I can say is a couple things. Utah is ruthless. These people that leave the church don’t just leave, they are so pissed and will take any one down with them…

The only answer I had for them is “… I feel that it’s true. And I have no idea why, but I believe it.” They seriously laughed in my face… it was a defining point to me. I think Heavenly Father knew I needed to hear my own voice say it.