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A long awaited update...

2010-11-21T19:21:00.000-08:00

So many posts that I read start with what I'm going to say... I haven't written in a LONG time. Oh the life of a busy single girl in a new city.
Lets start with Some happy Thoughts: haven't done that in a while. Lets start with my top 5 oh so happy things of the evening:
#1 Bright Pink Nail polish in the winter. I almost makes you warmer just looking at it and wearing it. Let us remember: Once a Cali girl ALWAYS a Cali girl.
#2 Peaches in Strawberry Banana juice. YUM. What a delightful treat.
#3 DI. I have found some SMOKING deals at DI this past week. Man are they Smoking. I love it, love them. True source of Love.
#4 Jelly Bellies... I love that you can guess the flavor, Makes for some classic entertainment.
#5 The lesson in Sunday school today. It was AWESOME. It's been a while since I've been to a Sunday school class that has rocked my socks. It was such a great lesson. It was about the Book of Mormon being the Key Stone of our religion and Lives. I love pondering the simple things of the Gospel. So simple but yet Amazing profound. Everything I have and know are based on the fact that that Book is true. It is truly the word of God for our lives.
While in the class I thought alot about Nashville and the people I taught there. It was amazing the simple truth that was taught in the Book of Mormon that would literally change the entire life of those I taught and met with. I remember being younger and reading scriptures with my family. As number 8 of a family of 9 children getting us all to read scriptures was no small thing. My poor parents. HOWEVER. we generally read the scriptures daily, and if we didn't read them they were always a source of discussion.
How grateful I am for the scriptures being the key stone of my life. I realize that every time I have had any question I have always turned to the Book of Mormon. Life gets crazy? Seems like every the familiar feeling of home is found in those pages. I am grateful that my family has also adopted the familiar feelings of truth. WHAT A BLESSING.
I feel like my life right now is one big Question Mark. Where will I be in a year, Will i still be just Cheryl, will I have a job... blah blah blah. With all the questions in the world there is one that will always stand whole and true, it is My relationship with my Savior and the reality that he lives.

Oh so grateful.

A little bit of Update...

2010-09-21T16:36:00.000-07:00

Here's just a little bit of whats been going on, I'll post more, I ran out of time at work :) Love you all!

So it feels like it has been FOREVER since my last post. I don’t know how you bloggers do it. I can’t handle working full time and being in a full time relationship- it’s crazy around here. Lets do a run down…

Augusto_ Derrek got a new car! Horay! It’s quite the car, and lets just say wonder oman would be in HEAVEN. It was the pace car to the track he works at, (and if any of you are like me and don’t know what that means it was the car that lead the races). He won the right to buy it at work ( I know it sounds funny but it was a Killer Deal only having 20k miles and all pretty looking, plus it’s some what of a collectors Item)

I moved to SLC. Most of you already know this, but I moved in with my little brother just off I 15 and 45th. Derrek lives on 21st and I 80 (or so) so literally we are 2 exits apart. Very different than the 45 min apart, and let me say for the record that I LOVE it! I love being in the City, I love being close to the Big D, I love my new apartment.

Derrek got his cast off! Horay! However, It seems like it would be better for me it he still had the cast. I often get playing around and totally forget that it’s still an ouchie. Totally ouchie.

I started in a new office, which has been great.

In Spetember I was able to start the month off with a Trip to Ohio for my Birthday. Talk about party and a ½. My Sister Lyn had Twins a few months ago, and I have been dieing to get my hands on those babies. Boy were they get to get a hold of! They are so dang cute! Hats off to my sister and brother in law who sleep very little. I have become very use to my life with out kids and have found that I love the quiet. I’m not quiet ready for 5 kids 2 of which being twins under the age of 2 months.

My other Sister (Ceri) had moved to Ohio over the summer and I missed them a lot. They were also in Cincinatti and it was quiet the party when I got to see all the kids together. 8 Kids under 8, WOW. That lady… Goslin something, no matter how crazy gets points in my book for simply Living under the same roof. It’s completely nuts.

So I got Home from Ohio to have my Boy greet me at the airport. I finally got out of him My birthday surprises… a New BED! Yes a bed. And Lion king Tickets, and a new Phone, did I forget to say I went to the John Mayer Concert the night before I left.

Let me just write some oh so grateful things really fast:

1 I am oh so grateful for, my dad's foam pads he let me barrow. They were awesome while I was waiting to figure out the bed thing.
2 My brother. HE fixed my toliet one day and he actually is really great to live with.
3 The missionaries drooling over Derrek's car when I went out to get something from it. I miss my mission boys alot, so seeing them some how made me feel closer to my studs for a brief moment.
4 a place in Ohio called Mejier. It is awesome- 5$ shoes... that are cute!!! HOLLAR
5 I can't help it... I am grateful for my boy. He is my Cheese to a cheese burger. I am so much better with him around.

Look but no touchy...

2010-08-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

This is Him, in all his glory. My main squeeze and a dang cute little girl. He still gives me chills when we kiss: I've got it bad for this one. Heaven sent my Derrek!

The life...

2010-08-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

So I love these emails. I more wanted to put them on a blog so I would have record of them. What are they you ask? Well, Joshy my dear nephew, got a package from his Aunty. This is his response to the package. It made me giggle, and in fact it was a reminder that he's still Joshy... and rock star at that.

"loved it all. I acted out a nephite lamanite battle for comp study with the army men.
I got all three elders with the whoopy cushion. I'm wearing the shorts and shirt. I shot the noise balloons at the other companions last night after lights out and made them scream like girls. Great package. Thank you. Plus I have eaten a few of the ramen packages and plan to eat one in an hour.

I do like the ties alot. Elder Good actually made fun of the pink tie. and then i pulled out my other 7 pink ties and he felt kinda lame. he's all "ohhh.... your one of those pink dudes" like it was supposed to be an insult. I'm like "yeah man, that is where it is at and don't you forget it."

Isn't that great? I love it. The next best thing would be getting pictures... Something is wrong with Boy missionaries. We get like NO pictures. LAME.

Also,

This last weekend was the extended Butler Family reunion. The Butlers (William Ray) was in charge of the reunion this year. It's been fun for me to get re-acquainted with the cousins that I never knew. Interesting to say the least. There are pictures on Face book of the activity, so super fun. Derrek's family had baptisms that day so I didn't think he'd be able to make it since the baptisms were in South Jordan and the reunion in Spring Lake.

HOWEVER, I was sitting talking to my mom, and I see this car the kids are nailing with water balloons. I was making fun of it, then I realize it's my boyfriend. He drove right in the middle of a hornets nest of water balloons. Pretty fun, and awesome surprise. Again, how did I get so lucky?

MY FAmily ROCks. I was reminded of this. Derrek and I had so much to do. Friday I went and picked him up from work so we could get his Drivers license, after that we hit up the bank before the weekend, then I got a text mom and dad, ted and mike were all meeting for dinner. So we met up for dinner. Derrek and I had gotten horribly sick from that buffet before so we watched while others ate. Mom and Dad ran into old family friends- the Dennis's- they lived in Bakersfield long ago, and are now living in Kaysville, ut. They sat and ate dinner- fun to see my parents excited to see old Friends and fun to hear the stories.

After dinner Derrek and I got him packed up, and also grabbed all the stuff we needed and headed out to my parents house. We got out there at 10 pm (holy) and ended up with alot to do. Mike and my dad was All over it.

Mike and dad made Pink and blue rice crispy treats, I topped them off with sprinkles, Derrek helped with the Butler Reunion Sign, and helped me glue the huge pictures of the ansectors on poster boards for different games I wanted to do like- pin the hair on the ancestor.

After all the hard work, we Heated up some poppers, chips and dip and we played our selves some Farkle Until about 1 am.

Gosh Dang how on earth did I get so dang LUCKY.

Grateful:

#1 Diet Dr. Pepper. I'm very grateful for the sugar free drink so I can partake with out worrying about the Yeast issues.

#2 Aloe. Thank you Earth. Between tanning, and Kayaking Aloe= Awesome.

#3 Food coloring. We got some for the rice crispy treats Derrek needed for the baptism. So of course we had green lemon bars, and I'm so excited about the colorful opportunities that maybe at hand.

#4 Wipe off markers. In our house we use the white board wipe off markers to write notes for each other. The mirrors work perfectly. It's always fun to find notes in the rest room mirrors, etc. I love me My MAL.

#5 Red Box. How's that for easy and cheap when it comes to date night? Saturday night we enjoyed 2 movies for 2 dollars. Shout OUT. Can't compare when the theatre tickets are like 17.50$ for the 2 of us. Screw that! "lets just wait for reb box"

Life= awesome. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. Life is good!

Wed!!!

2010-08-04T09:42:00.000-07:00

Doesn't happen very often, so are you ready? I'm bored at work. Can you believe it?

One more day of the week, one more...

Lets start with graditude.

#1 My fun/ cute new under shirts with lace on the bottom. I love love them.

#2 My date night with Zach!!! I got to buy the books I've been wanting to read. They are laced with all kinds of war stories, and tragitys, BUT always triumph.

#3 Flat shoes. Comfy! Perfect for work.

#4 Toe nail polish. Fun! I didn't wear it for a couple weeks... took a "break" and when I put it back on I realized how much I love it.

#5 Mal's trash. She was going to throw out like 2 bags of clothes. Turns out some of them totally work as work clothes ( I truly don't care what I look like at work but they are cute)

A few Fun Photos of LIfe.

2010-07-29T16:29:00.000-07:00

2010-07-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

Enough is Enough! I need to take time and be oh- so grateful. My life is so incredibly blessed that I am going to chose to take a couple free minutes and express some serious graditude.

My life is so awesome.

My sisters. My 2 sisters who live in Ohio (I still think that is so random!) I adore them so much. I need to be better to them. My dear Lindy Loo has had trail after trial in this last little bit. She moved from OK, to Ohio, she had twins 2 weeks before the move. That’s enough to send me over the edge (let alone the birth story). THEN, they couldn’t find a house so her and her 5 kids and hubby are living in a hotel. Her Hubby starts a new job (shout out), and the ac in the hotel goes out! My sister gets a kidney infection and is hospitalized. My other sister takes her 3 kids to the hotel to help with the other 5 kids. That’s a total of 8 Children in 1 hotel room. And I’m not helping anyone cause I’m playing gaga games in Utah (time off work is a whole other issue). Then after all this her little boys eyes start crossing. My niece Abby had eye crossing issues and many surgeries followed the crossing. This is when they lived out in Houston, and I usually made it to the surgeries. Now, being an adult and having a job it pains me that I can’t be there for little Alex. Growing up SUCKS.

What would I do if I had a million dollars? I’d fly to Ohio and watch my sisters babies so she could have a nap. Literally, that’s what I would do. THEN, I would go to my other friends house and help babysit, and then I would go to my other friends house and sit with her while she recovers, THEN I’d fly to Ecuador and give my nephew a big wet kiss (on the cheek-y)… So much to do, and so little resources to do it with.

I have the best boyfriend; so cute, so fun, so just right for me. A year ago today I would not have believed if someone would have told me the greatness I would be in a relationship with. He is a giant, and “wise beyond his years.” We’ve got issues, but I’d say we are a winning team and more than 90% of the time we are apart I just want to be with him. I’d say those are pretty good numbers.

I have such good friends. Seriously good friends. Let’s say Mal in specific and a few other Shout outs. It’s tough when life changes and things are unexpected. Adjustments are hard. I’m grateful for friends who believe and have the faith that I do, it makes changes easier, and the common goal clear. I love them, regaurdless of the time I can invest in them.

Which brings me to my next point. I LOVE LOVE my Long – far away friends. Amanada, Lind’s, Virg. All of whom I need to be better to. Amanda, who just had surgery, Lind’s who just had twins, and Virg who had a baby also. These friends of mine always focus the conversation on me and continually give to me emotionally. It’s like my own fountain of endless support. I love that there are people you can walk away from and not see for literally years, but for some reason when you see each other, it’s like no time passed.

And then, My nephews. My perfect, sweet, angel boys of nephews. They make my Mondays worth living… Jason doesn’t have as much time to email as Josh, and we’ve had some intimate emails that I adore. He is truly being Shaped and formed to what the lord would have him become. It’s fun to watch, but at the same time any one who has been shaped and formed knows its painful and really hard. It’s hard to watch. I can’t imagine how Heavenly Father feels. Horrible, helpless, but excited feeling all at the same time.

All of these would- haves and should haves between the BBq’s with mister perfection and family stuff, and days with the nieces, and and and. Seems like it’s never ending. I sometimes feel so torn with all the should be’s that need to get done. I’m pretty sure it’s pretty normal to feel like that, however doesn’t make it any easier. I’ve ordered a Covey refill to some how soften the blow of craziness. Heaven bless Steven for his awesome invention.

PS. Pictures are to come... Derrek has the camera!

Grateful Again.

2010-06-30T13:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like life these days is one big blur of packing for Salt Lake for the weekend then work monday morning, then Driving to SLC again on Thursday with some customers between the time. Holy blur. Last weekend derrek's work had a big race and it was alot of fun to go see him in his element and be introduced to a whole new world of racing and stuff I haven't really known too much about. As you can see in the photo's below, we went go karting, hung out at the museum, and watched the races... All in all a good time by everyone. Derrek's birthday was on Tuesday so it was fun for me to get to see him during the week. We went out to dinner, drove around looking at houses (the houses in Down town are awesome) went to get some cards for some serious Rummy, and then a knock at his door. The knock was his dad and the night ended with some chatting by his father. Derrek seemed to like his gifts, although he is not the excited type- I'd rather some one jump around happy, and he did not do that, but none the less a great evening with my BF. (still weird to say) Derrek is rad!

I had a few experiences this week that made me so grateful. each of these experiences I'm going to share will count as my grateful lists... I hope thats ok with everyone.

#1 I have made it my goal to thank every veteran that sits at my desk. Not an easy task because they are usually Felons, toothless, or currently drunk as I stumble through what I can do to help them. As bad as it sounds, I have become numb to people and their issues-in my work you have to detach at some point or you'll go crazy. So I had this one specific Veteran at my desk that I decided to be nice to and bend over backwards to help- this is a new thing for me. As he stood up to leave I looked him in his eye and thanked him for his service. He pulled back his sleeves from his shirt and said to me "I'd do it again." I was especially touched when I looked down to his arms where he had pulled his sleeves back, and they were covered with scars from burns, clearly this guy has been through some serious wounds.
I thought about that, and got emotional. The Hero's of my day are literally sitting in front of me at my desk, or are all around me... how grateful I am for men and women who do the ultimate, and sacrifice for me. That's a Christ like attribute that I reverence, rather, I am learning to reverence.

#2 I deeply miss my sisters and their kids. This I am grateful for this feeling. If you are anyone in my family I have always been a little removed and wanting to live far away from them. I have always wanted to live on the east coast, but right now it wouldn't matter where we lived. I just want my sisters. I feel home sick, but really its sister sick. I want the feeling thats usually at christmas. Everyone sitting around talking, and teasing the kids. With the Twins here, and my other sister at girls camp, and then another sister across the States- far far away, I'm feeling a whole in my heart. i've turned in to a girl that would live on the same street as my sisters... I'm some one I've always made fun of.

This is all I have time for now, however I am a frequent blogger. I love you all...

SO Grateful.

2010-06-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

2010-06-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

Thankful Thursday!

2010-06-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

Thank goodness it's THURSDAY! Feels like this week went Super Fast, but Also amazingly slow. Here are some highlights of the week:

* The stake rented out the surf and swim which I went to with Mal and Zach. How I love that those two are dating! It's like totally awesome.
Highlights of surf and swim: The BBQ of FOOT LONG hot dogs (these winnies were HUGE), Heated water (So nice to hang out in warm water when it's freezing cold out side), Malorie (we don't have much time to just hang out much), My bishop and his wife (they are so so NICE, I love them), the hot life gaurds (I know they are like 16 but still fun to gaze at them), oh and how could I forget the Special Ed guy that almost drownd: I know it's aweful aweful to say, but man I enjoyed watching the rescue effort.

*Bed time at 8pm monday night and before 10 the rest of the nights of the week. I have enjoyed going to sleep, seems like I can never get enough.

*Jack and Cheryl "Special" time. We don't get the chance to talk alot like we use to and I genuinly enjoy talking to him. He has had girl drama so it's been fun hearing whats going on. Plus, he is in rare form, like so excited to be dating and he just wants to party... Love the energy.

*I invented yummy breakfast food. Corn Tortilla's, ham and swiss cheese. Divine.

*I got the invitations completed for the family reunion the Butler's are incharge of. It's going to be August 7th (all are invited), and we have some seriously cool stuff planned. I'm excited.

*I talked to my supervisor and I'm offically in for a transfer Down Town. Deep breath, Huge deep breath. It will be great I know it, but still a big deal in my small little world.

OK time to be grateful.

#1 My awesome Sunglasses. I always feel fab when I am wearing those things, it's an instant facelift.

#2 Working with Elizabeth and Rene. They are Crazy, and so much fun! I admire Rene for being true to her self, and always doing what she know's is right. Some times in a work place full of nasty politics it's hard to find a genuin person. I am grateful for Elizabeth because of her example or service.

I'm done for the day, Peace out.

Happy Happy

2010-06-22T07:57:00.001-07:00

My goodness I’m so grateful!

#1 Bag water. I found boxes of bag water for $2.29 at Maceys grocery store and let me tell you it’s fun! Doesn’t taste very good at all, but it’s worth just carrying around a little bag of water. Love it, thank you Macey’s.

#2 My skin tag. I had one in my arm pit, until Derrek attacked me with dental floss and strangled the little guy right off. HOLY ouch. He got half the tag, and I have an open ouch in my pit. Derrek swears my quality of life will be improved. What ever. The best part is there will need to be a round 2 cause he only got half of it. I am grateful cause it entertained us for a good 10 minutes.

#3 My ring. I have a pretend wedding ring that saves my life at times. I work among real champions of citizens, and a semi attractive girl has no hope of being repested with out a ring on her finger. Fair? Not at all, however they are the rules of society so embrace them we must!

#4 My purple walls. I love my Surfer girl room. Love them. They make me smile with hope of another trip to CA.

#5 Garments. Comfy. Breathing. Mine are currently too big, and Oh how excited I am to one day replace them all and have all new, clean, and amazing garments to wear. Yummy.

“I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought; and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder.” ~G.K. Chesterton

weekends are so fun!

2010-06-21T11:06:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for the people in my life that make it so exciting to look forward to the weekend. I'm also Extremely grateful for my friends who make everyday a party. Derrek and I had date night at his house, and we ended up having an awesome dinner, then temple square and a movie. We got to see my parents on sat morning and also hit up the farmers Market (awesome). Then we had a date night with Hannah (my BF from SUU- shout out). Long day! Then off to Da's for breakfast, with mike and my parents. We also hit up church, then off to Derrek's adorable sister for dinner with his family. We cooked... turns out we are pretty good together. Awesome conversations and awesome awesome company. Have I mentioned that life is good? Oh man it's good!

Grateful

2010-06-17T09:28:00.001-07:00

Haven't done this in a while, so I must be grateful for a moment.
I am so so grateful for...

#1 Everything I have. I am so incredibly blessed. I wake up and enjoy the clothes I own, and can live comfortably. What a blessing!

#2 My hair straightner. It takes the friz away, and I'm SO grateful.

#3 MY sweet brother and his wife in california. While we were there our trip was chuck full of unexpected little fun times. Like seriously full of them. They were so nice to us and I am so grateful.

#4 Along with that, the Garcia's (Amanda) seriously took care of us. Gave us a place to stay, food to eat, and a bed to sleep in. I love her just like I did when I was 6. True friend, and oh how grateful I am.

#5 My card making abilities. I have been lucky enough to have a stash ready to go so I could just grab a card and go. I am grateful for that, people know I love them!!!

I feel like there have been so many small blessings, it's unbelieveable. I am so so grateful.

PS. The pictures are that we finally got to move freniture up to Ogden that is so comfy. I love our new house, and I LOVE Mal.

Oh my boyfriend.

2010-06-15T13:40:00.000-07:00

Yes that’s right, I’m officially dating someone. This may not be news to many of you, usually when you are seeing some one for as long as we have been commitment of some sort is sure to follow, however I’m Cheryl so it took him coming out and asking for it to be done. Guys, I’m off the market (for now anyway), and happily liken on someone. (A lot)

So his name is Derrek, his flava is Strawberry blondes that are so fun and cute. I absolutely adore him. Absolutely.

Lets talk California. Holy California. I am a mess, and finally the gig is up, Derrek got the full exposure to the mess. Our vacation started… In Utah. I was responsible for getting to Derrek’s house (basically down town SLC) and getting us to my parent’s condo just in time for the flight. Let me preface this with the fact that before this trip I was clearly the planner in this relationship. Derrek isn’t one for planning, he’s the type that would call day off and we’d go out, but progressively got better as we dated more.

So I get to Derrek’s and I’m totally late. About 45 min. Usually not a big deal but we are working with airlines so maybe at this point we should hurry and get to the airport. I had already checked us in, so we just had to go through security. It was flawless and off we went to catch our flight.

Our seats were not scheduled together, I had talked to the airline about getting us together, and they couldn’t do it. I’d be darned if I didn’t sit by my Hottie on the long hour flight to Phx. I couldn’t keep my little hands off him. So I ended up talking to the lady next to me and wow, we were sitting next to each other. The lady was on the same row and us, and was a complete DOLL. She had dropped her only son off at the MTc the day prior. Derrek served in Japan and I having served in Nashville, we both had some words to say to her about missions. Derrek teased that is a chatty Kathy, but who can blame me, I was going on my first flight with this guy I totally liked, and was super excited to go home to California.

So after the flight, we got into Phx. Can I just say I do not have good memories at Phx. I actually dread flying to and from that airport. Memories attached to it that I wish not to revisit. Well, most of you should laugh at this next part coming. We get to Phx, and I’m feeling pretty good. I harassed Derrek about not knowing our flight plans and continually quizzed him on our flight information based on what I believed to be true. There we sat at flight gate B4 to start our wait for our plane. The lay over was suppose to be about 2.5 hours, which is long and annoying, but whatever. Derrek got a pizza, we shared it, and then we played Mash, Bash and made fun of each other… While sitting there Derrek continually checked in on the flight by saying “your sure it’s B4” “when does our flight leave” etc. I assured I was in control and for him to sit back and enjoy his vacation.

WELL, our flight was to leave at 8.00. at 8.02 Derrek sits up and looks at me. He says, “What time is our flight again?” I say “8.00, (like totally irritated he’s even asking)” then he looks at me while gathering his stuff and says “Cheryl it’s 8.02”

After a long string of profanities I pull out the tickets, sure enough it’s gate B7 which we weren’t very far from at all.

I freaked. Derrek is so calm and level headed. I was like frantic yelling at any airline person around. When we got to the gate we see them pulling the walkway back from the plane, and I’m like yelling… “Stop the plane” I remember some time in my freak out I looked back and Derrek is like feet behind me like totally removed from the situation. At the time I didn’t realize what he was doing, now I know he was probably shocked I turned into that beast, or like shocked I truly thought they would hold the flight for me. Later that night Derrek said something that made me really laugh… “you think your Oprah or something? Who do you think you are that they’d stop the plane for you” I guess at that freak out time I clearly wasn’t thinking, but if I had been thinking I would have thought that on occasion you can catch a break and not look like such an idiot in front of this totally hottie your enamored with. Karma or the universe could not be that bad to me to get me to look this dumb in front of him.

If I would have thought that I would have been wrong. Karma does actually really suck, and idiot is a minor word for how I looked. We went to customer serve after I finally realized they weren’t stopping the flight and by this point I’m laughing so so hard. Like hysterically. Derrek, Was not laughing, I think he may have been a little confused at what the heck was going on.

So the very very nice lady helped us and after telling us there weren’t flights available to Bakersfield for 2 days, we finally settled on a flight to Burbank for the next morning at 6:30. pretty early huh? NOT IF YOU’RE SLEEPING AT THE AIRPORT. Which we did. Don’t worry we scouted out the perfect place to sleep in the gate, no one else was there besides us so we felt fortunate to get the pick of the draw. After walking around the whole gate and finally deciding on a spot, we made camp… Literally. Derrek didn’t have time to dry his clothes he packed so he pulled those out and we had our selves a drying area. Then it’s time to “sleep.” That’s a joke. It started out fine, but then I was freezing. Like so cold. Then Derrek got cold. We resorted to putting an article of clothing on each limb to make us warm. Derrek looked so so funny. I was still laughing really hard, I couldn’t believe we missed our flight let alone that we were sleeping there, then that this guy had my black silky Pj’s on. Oh my life.

Janitors are vacuuming around us. Yeah like seriously. WE were the only people in the whole gate besides the Janitors and I swear they took forever vacuuming around us. Derrek said he thins they went slower in our area… they thought he was cute. Horrible night of no sleep. I finally took 2 Tylenol pm’s, and even then no sleep. I did enjoy cuddling we my handsome all night; that was a sure benefit, however would not recommend it.

We woke up and took camp down when people starting coming into their flights at about 5. Derrek and I took turns brushing teeth and getting dressed. I went to get dressed and checked the flight monitor. I started to freak out, we needed to be in B21 for our next flight to Burbank. So I change and then tell Derrek that we had to go catch our flight. Derrek kind of laughs and says “are you sure” I assured him I was positive. He looks and me and says “Cheryl B 21 is to Boston” YES, I almost lead us astray again. Luckily this time he checked up on me and we got to the right gate.

As we sat at the gate we were feeling warm. Derrek starts to look around and realizes that we had totally slept under the air conditioning vent. No wonder we were freezing.

So we get into Burbank and take the bus down to Bakersfield. Needless to say, it was great to get there, and we truly enjoyed the Garcia, Gomez and Butlers. Seriously, I wish we were still there. The weather was warm, but the pool was perfect. The retirement party turned out perfect. I loved having Derrek there with me. I think I fell more and more for him there. There’s something about some one you adore loving people you love, and the world being right again.

We had more experiences that were note worthy on the trip, however I want to add that to another post this one has gotten quite long.

Let me just finish with a few points being made: #1 Derrek does very well in situations that are just lame, like missing a flight. #2 Derrek was so incredibly cute with the babies in CA. SO cute. #3 I like Derrek. #4 I feel so blessed to have the family and close close friends I do. I pinch my self often in gratitude. Life truly is blessed.

PSSSS… My sister had her twins. They are SO cute! So sweet, and so perfect. I can’t wait to get my little paws on them. Oh babies…

What a Weekend!

2010-05-31T15:34:00.001-07:00

I love 4 day weekends! It seems as if there aren't enough in the world.

Below are some awesome pictures of this weekends high lights. Derrek, my "friend" invited me out to his work event. Luckily he works out at the Larry H. Miller race track so the event was way fun. It was fun to see him in his element, and his cute little work shirt. Then I realized I see him in work shirts all the time, in fact all the pictures I have with him are in the same shirt... HUmmm, I smell a shopping spree.

The event is some world wide motor cycle race, I fear the details have escaped my mind, however still fun. We saw a concert of the bands Kansas, Stix, and Foreigner. Apparently cool bands, I didn't know much of the material. i just enjoyed being with Derrek and frankly, I like Holding his hand.

Next we went to Logan for Mal's mom and Dad's talk on sunday. They were so awesome!!! After we played games and Ate yummy food. Then I headed back to Salt Lake to enjoy dinner with my Buddy. After dinner we watched this national geographic special about the body. Nerds, yes you can call us nerds. HOWever, at least I'm no longer a nerd alone. I've got a nerd friend.

Then, for Memorial Weekend I decided I needed a purple surfer girl room. So we spent the better half of the day painting, and I have every intention of making dinner and watching the bachlor then hitting bed!!! I'm exhausted.

Lets hurry and say my 5 grateful things before I pass out sleepy.

#1 I'm so grateful for mine and Derrek's flight confirmations that came via email today! Our trip is 2 days away. I have a feeling it's going to be a long 2 days :( But :) for after the 2 days!

#2 Microwaves. Our's went out and holy annoying. I can't tell you how many times I walked over to the microwave to heat something, start it and then see it wasn't working and put it in for longer only to realize it wasn't working. Malorie thought it was pretty funny, she's the one that usually busted me.

#3 Dryers. Not only did the microwave go out, but also the dryer. After hauling my stuff literally all over northern utah (logan, Slc, Saratoga springs, Ogden) I realize I'm so grateful I have one in my home.

#4 My sam's club reusable bags. I love them. They are big, and awesome.

#5 OK so this is kinda a funny thing to be grateful for, I'm grateful for being able to spit. Derrek and I had our date night at his work and I turned my head to spit. Well just then the wind picked up and a nasty spit wad instead of going to the ground went into my beautiful strawberry blonde hair. Derrek laughed, and then looked at me like I was growing something out of my forhead. Don't worry, he won't let me live it down.

All in all, I'm just a lucky and grateful girl!

2010-05-31T15:28:00.000-07:00

Deep Breath!!!

2010-05-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

Holy Toledo! I am so glad this week is almost over! SO glad!!! I had my first set of truly “grown” up interviews where presentations were required… (Well, one was suppose to be a report but the requesting supervisor did not state that in the request email so she got an out line for a presentation).

I was so stressed about it, but would never admit the stress. I was like on edge, and there were only a few things that would settle my tummy… (Lets be honest, only a few “people” ;) I am ever so grateful for my dear Mal who, at this point knows what I need more than I do. When I get stressed and freaked out, with out saying anything she turns into go mode.

She cooked with me. On Sunday I came up with this idea of cooking for hours for the week to come. I’ll be honest; it was really a remedy to my anxiety, who doesn’t find comfort in the yummy-est food ever? (I tend to think highly of my cooking) After cooking and getting all that done, magically my presentations were still waiting for me to write and organize them. Magically. What a PAIN. What’s worse than having to present in front of a panel of 4 Supervisors and an Area Manager? I’m pretty sure nothing, however after thinking about it, I’d rather present then have to recover from surgery.

The interview on the first day I walked out feeling neither way. I wasn’t feeling like it was good, but I don’t feel like I’m out of the running. I thought 15 people were interviewing, turns out only 5. That means my chances are much greater. OMG I might actually have a shot at this.

The second day interview could be called somewhat of a train wreck. HOWever, I looked HOT in my little suit. I have great great hair and I actually like my legs these days. Then there’s my eyes… they are HOT. I was checking out my mom, and she has very pretty blue eyes, I probably got them from her. Back to the interview- just glad they are over. I should know in 2 days what the result is. Could be nothing and those interviews were a “great” experience.

Aside from that, I am so looking forward to this long weekend. My new ward is full of great people, and I’m really excited about it. Turns out there is another click of “cool” people who want to join forces with our click. They live like a couple blocks away and should be fun to call at a moments notice to play tennis or something (now that my click is all paired off, and my “friend” Derrek lives in SLC I’m wide open for things to do after work) Maybe I should volunteer somewhere.

Lets move on to the Good stuff, my Grateful list.

#1 This morning’s e-mail from the state. The lady who sent it is named Nichole- Malorie. Random name, but those happen to be the names of our 2 click members- the other females anyway, and seeing their names made me smile.

#2 My Ball. This week a guy- who’s name I will no longer recognize as a name, broke my egg/ science project. I’ve been working on this thing since January and after me asking him not to do it many many times, he broke it. No apology from him, because “it’s just an egg, and I need to get over it” Of course, Lame guy. I was so so so upset (still am). Like profanities upset. Last night, Nichole invited us over to dinner, her and Jack made Peruvian… they had a surprise. It was a bouncy ball that has green glitter in it. How very very sweet of them. At the time it made me sad cause I realized I didn’t have this project that I have tried to complete so many dang times, but yet again some one couldn’t keep his hand off… when I saw the ball this morning I realized it represented genuine friends who care about my feelings so so much. I though to my self, “Ah they love me” and had a warm heart for a minute.

#3 Liquid eye liner. I never wore it before Mal came along. I had tried some of my sister Ceri’s but I was always allergic. Well, I found a brand that works and my eyes are Beau-ti-fullllll because of them. Thank you Revlon for bringing out the true HOTtIE in me.

#4 So I’m a blog stalker. I’m grateful for it. I have a list of 5 blogs I follow regularly of people I have never met. The first blog is of a good friends X-husband’s new wife. Next would be Jack’s X girlfriend, then a lady that got in a plane crash, then Jack’s Sister in law who is so dang funny… and the last one is… some other funny chick, I don’t even know who she is. Random? Of course, but I love the entertainment. Don’t kid your self, blog stalking is part of my daily routine, and I’ll frequently text Jack and tell him to jump on line new pictures are posted on HIS Families site. If any of you know of blogs I should be reading, PLEASE SHARE.

#5 I’m grateful for the feeling I have right this second. Totally Chill, Music going on, Good stuff to look forward to this weekend (date night with my nephew), a job that I enjoy, a kissing friend I adore, and friends that have made my world go around.
Ahhhh it’s a good life. I feel so at peace I could be sitting at the beach and feel the same feeling.

Happy White Wednesday! (That means temple tonight), seriously does it get any better?

Grateful

2010-05-25T09:39:00.001-07:00

Lets just hurry and do this... Seems like life is a hurry these days.

I'm so grateful for...

#1 The Logan canyon. As I went for my first really big interview (upper management) I was so nervous. I was in a state car, Suit, and feeling so official. I was so nervous and anxious. The canyon was amazingly beautiful. My nerves were calmed and it reminded me a little of Alaska, which any one who's been there can agree the beauty is not comparable. Thank You Logan canyon for being there in my time of need.

#2 The guy above. DERREK. He's a newer friend that I just adore. He is fun, he's so sweet, and so nice (some times) and allot of times he's a total Joker. I'm grateful I know him though and have been having fun with him. He listens to my endless ramble of how lame things are, and how awesome I am... Ahhh Derrek.

#3 MY NEW WARD. LOVE IT. Absolutely adore it!!! I love that it's not click, and I love that Mal is in the Relief Society Presidency. Mal is frequently telling me how awesome I am, BUT lets be truthful. Clearly she is the awesome one.

#4 I love love my Seeds I make. Chinese Pumpkin seeds with Bragg's seasoning. Love it, love them, and thank heavens for yummy-ness.

#5 Yummy Salsa that I make. Last night I was freaking out BIG time about interviews and things. I had me some home made salsa and nachos. Lets just say, AMAZING.

2010-05-18T11:39:00.000-07:00

I'm kinda having a hard day at work, seems like I'm hearing sadder and more sad stories all over the place! Figure I better write something I'm so so grateful for before I turn into Bitter Betty.

#1 Zach's Voice. My friend Zach and I have this Love and Big time hate relationship. We fight, and then we hug and love each other so much. I'm grateful for that. Sometimes you need a friend you can just call and cuss at, and then they laugh at how dumb you sound...

#2 Paul Mitchell Mousse. I love how it makes my hair just the perfect curl. I don't have it right now, and I'm feeling the pain. With out it the "curl" looks like a soft wave, and it's not at pretty (dare I say that about my own hair?) Paul Mitchel, I love your mousse. Thank you sir for bringing out my best curl.

#3 I'm grateful for Anna the cleaning lady at my work. She is so sweet. She's Seventh Day Adventist and so dang cute. Every week i get the Adventist news in English and Spanish, and she invites me to worship with her all the time. We talk about life and she is always so sweet and concerned about whats going on. When I had my surgery she prayed for me. How sweet is that? I always use the "Usted" form of my Spanish verbs to show her I respect her. Truly I have learned, it does not matter what your job is, but how you touch those around you with the spirit you bring to that job.

#4 Chap stick... Seems to be coming in handy lately.

#5 My trip to Cali in the making. I'M so excited!!! I will be staying with the Gomez family (I love them) and hanging out with my sister in law, the kids, brother, and also a sister from another mama, Nicki. I love them all, and nothing better than California of a couple days to get your mind off Utah happenings. Lets not forget that a super cute cute guy is coming with. Hollar.

Thanks again!

2010-05-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

Thursdays are always a good feeling for me. A deep breath, and a week closer to retirement, which means a week closer to a mission, and being a grandma. Kinda wierd count down huh? I just really want to skip being a mom and I want to be a granny with all the fun benifits that it includes. I just see my self being so fun as a granny.
OK, this passed week at work was kinda a big one at work; new structure, new supervisor, possiblities are endless when they do this. Alot of anxiety, but I'm glad to announce nothing is changing for Cheryl (for now anyway). I was feeling mixed about it, I think I wanted a change, but now I'm feeling good about it.

My friend Jack has this girl friend that we just love. Life is so much easier when a close friend is dating some one you love and adore. Its a mutal consis, we love and adore nichole. Welcome to the crew little one. She Brings with her a fresh perspective, and a kindness thats not so nerdy. We love you girl and are excited to have you.

Let's start our grateful list before I have to go teach a workshop.

#1 I am so grateful I have manners. People come in here alot with out them and I think it says so much about who you as a person when you use them, verse when you don't.

#2 Straws. I love them. I don't like to have to move my head while working and drinking.

#3 Elizabeth Chenney. She is a co worker that has such a tender heart. We have the best conversations. She's got some sassy to her, don't worry. I was hesitant to want to work with her, but have found it to be an awesome experience. I really enjoy her spirit both at work and on a personal level (hard to accomplish).

#4 Helping friends. Nichole Came over last night so we could talk about Boys (with out them being there) and it was so good! I had to clean my room and the house cause Derrek is coming (Horay!!!) she was so sweet, she could not sit back and watch, she had to help. No matter how much some one says no, they really do want help! I love that I have friends that know that.

#5 reality checks. No matter how awesome life is and how happy I am, reality checks help us know what it is we are doing here, and what it is we are becoming. I am grateful.

Here's some inspiration for your day!

Allow Your Own Inner Light to Guide You

There comes a time when you must stand alone.
You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.
You must be willing to make sacrifices.
You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.
Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.
There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.
Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.
Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.
Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.
Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way.

So Happy, and So grateful.

2010-05-12T14:47:00.000-07:00

First off I have one more day of work till the awesome weekend starts! Not that I’m wishing my days away, but more of me loving those that surround me in my life and love to spend every minute with them! Let me send a grateful shout out to those I love. I love you!

#1 I can’t help it. I love my twins already and they aren’t born. My sister called, we need to pray that little girl inside of her needs to flip so she can come into the world naturally. So let us pray. I love her Camilla, and baby Spencer already and they haven’t breathed yet. I just love them.

#2 Flex spending. As hospital bills come in and all other bills I’m so grateful I thought about this surgery in advance. Like so grateful.

#3 The clips on my board that allow me to post pictures with out putting a whole in the picture. I have them In pink, purple, and light blue. I love it, and think of how cute those colors are all the time.

#4 My nephews. The mission boys. Again I say it frequently, but man I love them. I try to sway them to call their aunty frequently, but no luck YET. I sure look forward to living forever with my nieces and nephews. There is no better Joy then them growing and making good choices. Shout out family of mine.

#5 Baja Blast Mt. Dew. Love it. Dear Taco Bell thank you for being invented. Thank you for bringing some of my life line a.k.a. Mt Dew Baja Blast to my life. Thank you.

Grateful Tuesday

2010-05-11T10:07:00.000-07:00

I owe my self grateful things today, just because i forgot yesterday. I was so sleepy.

#1 Bubble gum! Nothing better than blowing big bubbles. I'm pretty sure blowing bubbles can solve allot of problems in the world.

#2 Change. It seems like everything is changing these days. I go into freak out mode, then I realize all the great things in life happen when change comes to pass. I'm glad I don't know whats up with work, I'm grateful I have a new ward, and I'm glad everyone in our "click" ha ha is dating and things are changing that way too. being stagnate is never a good thing.

#3 Expedia Web site. I love it. I love that I can simply put where I want to go and a price comes up, and I know for the low price of ___ all my problems are solved. LOVE it.

#4 My USB cord! Oh how I love my camera, and Oh how I love my connecting cord!

#5 ranch. Simple, but makes my world so much better. My world goes round because of my need for ranch on so many goods.

"A simple grateful thought turned heavenwards is the most perfect prayer." Doris Lessing

My heart is Especially happy For my Dear Sweet PERFECT TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait!!!

Mal's Big HUge day!

2010-05-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

I had the awesome opportunity of going to the temple in Logan with Malorie.

Hollar! It was so beautiful with all the flowers and the weather... AMAZING.

Us and our twins. We love them. Where would our lives be? Shortly after the temple, they put on a concert for us at Mal's house. Her mom fell in LOVE with Zach, (of course it's kinda a duh)

Me and my Jack. What an awesome guy! The night before Mal's big day, Mal and I drove up to Logan to help her mom get the house ready, then we bought all the nourishing food (BBQ!!!) We roasted hot dogs and it was FUN!!! (we've been wanting to BBQ for some time now)

Mal is so Cute! She was so calm, at this point I was freaking out for her, Seems like I did all the freak out fro every one else.

Me and my Winnies. Little known secret, I didn't eat hot dogs till after my mission. Can you believe that? (to my credit they are kinda gross) Now I just eat the polish kind, Costco converted me. Now look, I'm a hot dog roaster... Old dogs learning new tricks.

Jack looks so cute here. What a crazy. I just love Zach. Before I headed up north my mom hooked me up with a list of family names to find in the cemetery in Smith Field (where Mal is from) turns out I have family that Settled the city (we are Smiths) So I took pictures of head stones and stuff with Mal. What a good Friend she is to do that with me. This is a picture with a Craghead, the other side of the family.

What a good Friend!!!

Long story short, great weekend. I was able to see some other "friends" and it was PACKED full of fun. My Nephews from the Mission were able to call home, I didn't talk to any of them- I felt it was important for them to have special time with their mom's. I called my mom and wished her a happy day.

My ward was reorganized this last week so we have everything new. I went to Church alone, and eventually was able to talk Zach into ward hopping over to my ward. I was so glad he was there with me.

I'm glad I have Friends that I can sit in Holy places with, what a blessing.

Grateful

2010-05-05T14:39:00.000-07:00

Even after that Novel of a post I still must shed some seeds of gratitude.

#1 Bleach wipes :) Trust me, they are a very good thing where I work. Heaven bless Proctor and Gamble (shout out to the newest employee my Brother- in- law Jeff (Hey Jeff- I can still Kick your rear end just cause your big time now doesn't mean snot)).

#2 Texting. My communication to my Twins and BFF during the work day. Where would we be with out each other, you people are my rocks and constant communication is a must. whats the saying? A family that texts together stays together?

#3 The emergency contacts list above my desk. Bright colors that are mandated by risk management that we have them by our phones in case we forget to call 911 in an emergency. (Who do they think we are? We run public programs and allocate funds but can't call 911?... HUM) I think it's funny everyday.

#4 My non slip teeth whitening strips. The new crest 3d are awesome. They don't move so you can talk and keep the party going all the while whitening those Hot dentes.

#5 Have I mentioned my amazing tooth brush? I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. Like LOVE it. I don't know how many of y'all know this but I am all about Oral Health.

Cinco De Mayo

2010-05-05T09:21:00.000-07:00

It's Cinco De Mayo!!! WARNING!!!!!! IT's a NOVEL!!!

I can't help but feel so excited for today! Cinco de Mayo means different things for Cheryl. The younger Cheryl loved Cinco de Mayo because it meant we got to have tacos and loud dancing music playing in the quad in elementary school. It meant that we talked about people like Cesar Chavez and the rights that he was able to win for his people.

As a High School student Cinco De Mayo meant more things, It meant that my Spanish teachers Dressed up in their native costumes and we watched "Mrs. Patino" dance her heart out! fresh tortillas, and Hot Latin guys imported to dance for us... HOLLar. I had allot of Hispanic Friends and I'm grateful that they always were true to their culture. I ate the most amazing food and would frequently look around the room being the only "white" girl around. I learned to laugh at my self Allot.

Most of you know that I went to BYU right out of high school- like litterally days after graduation. I think that's what saved my life. I think when I got to BYU I still had a blood alcohol level and I for sure woke up with a belly ring- thank you Amy and Jen for stopping me from getting the tattoo... Seriously. the scar of a belly ring is much better than what ever it was I thought was so vital to get tattooed on me that night.

Anyway, after a year in Utah, and at BYU I had changed. I wasn't that girl anymore, and I really missed my Hispanic Friends. Being around so many white people wasn't something I had ever done before, the culture was so weird here, and to be honest I wanted to go home. So after a year or so at "college" I went home to Bakersfield California.

A few things that people don't always know about Bakersfield is that it is infiltrated with a HUGE immigrant population. HUGE. Our economy was based on agriculture, and based on the season citrus, or grapes you can feel the influx of people. I literally had 3 close Friends in High School that were White, and like 10 Really Really Close Friends (BFF's) were English was not the first language. I think because of this, my few of politics and social systems are very different than that of any one else in the United States.

Going back home from Utah, I went to a community college (SHOUT out BC) and declared I was a Chicano Studies Major (the study of US born Mexican Americans) My brother was a professor of Politics at the same school, and I remember having some very heated conversations about the immigration policy and "liberal" attitude I had adapted to. I was the only White member of the M.E.Ch.A Club (props to anyone that knows what that means... seriously. especially out side of Cali, you are cool if you are living in Utah and can tell me what that means)

I was blown away by the history and amazing Heroism that was shown by "our" Hispanic fore-fathers. I was put in many "interesting" conversations taking allot of heat for what white men have done which is fair enough. Natives to California were subjected to allot when "my people" decided to head that direction. (Little do they know my people actually came from England on the Mormon Trail and were persecuted a bit too. My grandmother lost 3 kids over the ocean then walked across the United State bare foot so she could practice religion freely, but lets focus on our Friends south of the border today) My dad being the CFO of a major Vineyard put me in an interesting position. I took classes about the big corporations taking advantage of the cheap labor of illegals and the social issues that this oppression caused then I realized my DAD was the man who was literally responsible for allot of the complex social issues we were out to solve. OK so that's allot of responsibility to place on one man's shoulder- the issues really are so complex, However, lets imagine for a minute men standing up for another mans HUMAN rights. can you imagine the change in the world?

I was in my Chicano History Class, first semester. Mr. Torres, my professor stood up in front of the class and presented the history of Meso-America. He presented the Toltec people, Aztec's, Inca's and some of the greatest civilizations that the world has ever seen. I was touched by the words Mr. Torres spoke, and knew that what he was saying was true. At the end of the lecture when Torres started to address the Spanish Inquisition he mentioned the symbolism of Jesus Christ in the history of those people. There were certain things that the cultures had in common that all pointed to the truth that Christ had been Among those people.

At this point in the lecture Mr. Torres stopped the class and asked if anyone in the room was Mormon. Here in Utah this isn't a big deal right? Back home in Cali, admitting your Mormon is sometimes opening your self up to much degrading, and awkward situations. I am not going to lie. I almost didn't say anything. I hesitated. Then after a couple seconds I Lifted my arm and looking around I noticed not only was I the only Mormon, but I was the only "white" girl in the room. 2 direct hits.

Surprisingly, Mr Torres continued the conversation by saying something like this; "you Mormons have a book that teaches your people that Christ was on the American Content right?" and I said "yes, that's right, the Book of Mormon" Mr Torres said, "Mormon was a prophet that keep sacred record on gold plates right and then it was put in a book form for all to read?" and I said hesitantly "right" (at this point I'm just waiting to get slammed... and have to drop the class) BUT Mr Torres said "MAYBE THE MORMONS HAVE IT RIGHT AFTER ALL, they are the ones that teach Christ was here in America, and no one else teaches that."

Mr Torres went on to talk about how the inquisition affected the people of Mexico and how Mexico at the same time of America was built up and even at one point had a Constitution. The difference was that "the Church" was behind Mexico and the people were oppressed, where in the newly formed "United States" religious freedom was emphasised. The great test of time... Catholics VS. Protestants. Freedom to be Educated, and Enlighten Vs. Oppression and might I add "Communism" (big argument to make however I'm prepared if any one would like to challenge my thought process GAME ON.)

I learned allot of things in that class room that day. I Learned for the first time in my life everything I had been taught about the Book of Mormon, the ancient civilizations could also be intellectually evaluated as well as spiritually. (I fear being manipulated by "feelings" sometimes) I learned that I knew the solution for Mr Torres's longing for his ansestors and his heritage, I knew the name of his great Grand Fathers, and I knew where they came from. Lets start with Lehi, and then Nephi, throw in some Mormon's and Moroni's and Bam his family history is done) I learned I was so grateful to be part of a religious organization that deeply values education, and even promotes that. I sat in a room with the remnants of a people who truly had no idea of their GREAT heritage. I learned I liked Chicano History more than the usual Us history CRAP we were feed. The history of the United States is so much more than memorizing dates and names. It's people, and it's the lessons we can use to integrate into our lives to be better people.

I think the biggest lesson I had been taught by Mr. Torres that day was that I knew my life would change forever. I learned I'd be serving the posterity of those great civilizations for the rest of my life. I learned that most of my Friends, and experiences I had in my life up to that point was pointing me in a direction to serve the Hispanic community for the rest of my life. I knew at that moment I would some how learn to speak Spanish, and I knew I would serve them on a mission.

I knew this so strongly that when it came down to figuring out classes I would need to take to finish my degree I purposely put off the Spanish classes because I KNEW with out a doubt I would come home from a mission and test out of them, so why waste your time now right?

I went on my mission (barely, I think any one around during that time would agree that it was the HARDEST thing I have ever done). Fittingly I was called to Serve in Nashville Tennessee, Spanish speaking. Being engaged when the call came, I didn't even open it. My sister Ceri and her fiance at the time Jerry (now husband) came to my work and my sister opened my call right there in Beverly's craft store (she wasn't about to let me have a big white envelope laying around the house). I wanted to go to Italy SO badly. I watched the called to sever video probably everyday for that last year of my life, and the red head was sent to Italy (yes that is what I based my Mission Knowledge on- called to serve video) When she said "Nashville, Tennessee" I thought to my self "Hooray I'm going foreign, where's Tennessee..." I was completely clueless. Completely. However, I looked at the paper after a few moments and then realized it said Spanish speaking. I knew at that point I was not getting married... No way that guy had a chance.

As I learned the language, my heart was touched and molded in ways I can't express. I knew what I was doing would literally change generations to come and I took my role as an ambassador for Christ very seriously. Lets us not be confused, I still had a party when ever I could, but I knew my purpose of the service and I knew the eternal importance of my decision. Language never was a struggle for me. I don't know if it's because I had grown up around people who spoke Spanish, or if it's cause my brothers spoke it to me (usually inappropriate words, but those came in handy too) But I never struggled with Spanish. I knew that if I loved those people and understood my mission as Christ representative the rest would fall into place, and it did.

Don't get me wrong every missionary struggles. My struggles were in other areas, but the language and people were never an issue for me. Love is step one and I had that one down.

On a day like today, Cinco de Mayo, I reflect on all of these experiences that I've had. I reflect on the feelings I have had, and still have. I reflect on those values and core beliefs I hold to so strongly. I am grateful for Chicano Holidays. As an American, I believe that it is the mixture of cultures and beliefs, and honoring the hero's of those cultures can bring us nothing but a better understanding of who we are individually, and as citizens of this world. I think Days like these are great opportunities to reflect on what it is we hold dear, and then Share that with those around us so they have the option to experience our joys with us.

Grateful

2010-05-04T10:30:00.000-07:00

So my Grateful List, I'm not grumpy but we always are in need of a good moment or two of gratitude no?

#1 I'm grateful for... My big mug at my desk. I usually have hot coco or hot tea every morning. I found this amazing herbal tea: aci berry with Stevia. I am In LOVE. seriously that's all it takes to win me over, I'm pretty easy. Hot yummy herbal tea and I'm done.

#2 You tube. I love that when I'm at work and need a boost from the normal play list all I have to do is type in You tube and off I go to pure happiness.

#3 My so cute natural wave in my hair. It has saved my life a few times. Can I tell you that when I'm late and running out the door feels good to know with a few drops of mouse I will be some what presentable. Shout out to the DNA maker, thank you for that added bonus. (And my kids thank you)

#4 Grocery Shopping. Weird thing to be grateful for but I love it. I think even if I made Millions I'd still grocery shop. I always feel so accomplished and also at peace when I shop for food. My 2 favorite things to do in one location, can't get better. My favorite right now is Macey's Store. Love it.

#5 My Friends blogs. I am grateful for the people in my life that are living examples and share that through their blogging habits. My sister is pr ego with twins and lives far away. I feel connected to her and those babies still because of how awesome she is at blogging. I am grateful for this thing they call the world wide web. I'd spend so much time writing on paper other wise- and who likes to do that any more?

"For each new morning with its light, For rest and shelter of the night, For health and food, for love and friends, For everything Thy goodness sends." Ralph Waldo Emerson

Experiences

2010-05-04T09:48:00.000-07:00

The weekend was a party, as it usually is. How is it that days during the week seem like a full 24 hours instead of the 10 hours I'm actually at work? But on the weekend the 12 hours of day is equal to like 4 hours during the work week. How is that fair? I think in place of day light savings time we need weekend elongated time.

Can I just say a few things? I love having my parents close. They hook me up royally, and all these years apart from them I have forgotten that old people are like awesome, and at that, old people that will do anything for you are even cooler. I ended up enjoying an awesome concert (?) not sure if that's what you'd call it- but it was at the conference center with the mo tab and everything. IT WAS AWESOME. I was at first thinking it would be a snooze fest, but turned out to be wrong- usually am.

I enjoyed IN PERSON, my favorite mo tab song!!!! Morning Breaks. Oh the beauty. I use to dance around my apt on my mission in full garment glory to that song, P days really are a God sent. There was also some pretty motivating videos and other fun things shared but the "religious organization" to which I belong. I think the high light of the occasion was the speech from the ever amazing David G. McCullough. He shared he's thoughts on the public educational system, to which I agree with strongly.

Those of you who know my family, know and have heard me talk about my sister's who home school. They are following the Thomas Jefferson model of teaching and to their credit, (i don't let them know this very often but I agree with allot of what they believe), David G. McCullough had quite a bit to say and it was music to a home schoolers ears. Public Education is an interesting theory and if we look at the root of the system I think you'll find some interesting factors. Let us not argue about why public school is good or any thing else... Lets remember this is MY blog and I get to speak freely here. (you have a blog post it there if you want to say something about the educational system) However, I have noticed a Huge difference in some one who has a classic education vs those who have not yet educated them selves to that degree.

I admire people who study history, I truly believe we have so much to learn from the past, and so much gratitude to give to those who have gone before us. More than anything, I think that we respect and honor the people who sacrificed everything they had in order for us enjoy freedoms, by doing just that... Honoring the principles they have found to be eternal truths.

Now let me step off my high horse and come back to earth. Friday night was full of fun and entertainment as I had a girls night- Indian food is never ever a bad thing.

Saturday morning Holly and I woke up to drive to Logan only to find out the store we were going for didn't open till 12. WHAT THE. So we went to Smith and Edwards... which is an Army surplus store. Leave it to me and Holly to find the girly'est stuff in the whole freaking school and still managed to make it a shopping trip. True definition of being a girl. LOVE It. (Thanks Holly for Breakfast!)

Saturday night I enjoyed a night of Motor Cross. So fun! freezing, However a small price to pay to enjoy the smell and sound of motor cycles.

Ok So I'm not that into Motor cycles how ever the company was pleasant, and I really did have fun.

Malorie has found her self a boyfriend/ eternal companion- what ever you want to call it. Well this is her off to meet his parents. He is a doll and we heart him. I found that shirt at Ross and the second I saw it I was absolutely positive she could not live with out it. Looked Fab as usual.

Monday is Missionary day, I usually get the emails from my Mission Boys. This week Jo shy Pooh's was especially entertaining. Man that kid is cool. I really really miss him. At any mention of a missionary you can find this proud auntie welling up. How's that for cheese ball? I'm seriously so dang proud. Te ammo BUD.

Happy Thursday!

2010-04-29T13:37:00.000-07:00

Another Email at work, but I laughed pretty hard. ENJOY.

1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions o #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the Person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make great stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.

15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damn it!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voice mail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.

22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!

27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!

Grateful List

2010-04-22T09:35:00.000-07:00

I know I have this picture everywhere, but I just love it...
I'd like to tittle this picture... Hotty Pants. The two of us are classic fun havers. It's never ever dual, helps that I adore this kid, and I think the feeling is KINDA mutual.

I thought I should probably do this, I have much to be grateful for.

#1 I am grateful for an awesome supervisor. We put for sale signs on his car this morning (thank you to all who called him for inquiry and helped me pull this prank off). Good times.

#2 The Church History tours. Ceri and Jerry stopped and got to do some touring over there with their kids on their way over to Ohio. I miss them already and was so excited to hear from her. I'm grateful more than anything that the church is so important to my family, and for sisters who put that as a first for their families. I can't wait to hear their little voices tell me about "Adam on diom num" (sounded out?) I love those little voices.

#3 My foot rest at work. I have it good I'm not going to lie. It's a massager at the same time. AH heaven.

#4 My parents mission. I know I over use this, however they have the serious hook up for events at the conference center with the BIG guys (aka apostles)

#5 Michael Jackson's, This is it. I'm sorry to say this, but I love it. Man in the Mirror and Change, some other ROCK out tunes. The perfect music for this stage in life... Dance the night away and BEAT IT to the loser guys who don't have their SHIZ together.

#6 I did my first rinse last night with my nose that did not result in BLOOD!!! OMG I'm so happy! My nose is so perfect shout out to Doctor Anderson, and his Assistant Colby (yep we're on first name basis)

#7 I am SO grateful to my nail lady and her life story. In broken Vietnamese I heard it all from her last night. She is a doll: 36 Married to some one her dad's age and got a nail shop out of him... Done and done. 2 words for the nail lady: Girl POWER! (you go girl)

#8 Socks, my toes are so cold right now! I thought it was summer and wore flip flops to work (casual day) and because of the prank previously explained have been going in and out allot... turns out it's not summer. I'm Freezing. WET. Cold. I would love a pair of those toasty socks I have in my closet.

#9 My sister and Close Friend Both having twins at the same time. How is that for awesome!!! I'm so excited!!! I know I have used this before, but really I'm excited about it.

#10 My awesome-ness. Sounds lame but I did not create my spirit and soul, and I am grateful to have the gifts I have. I think that Heavenly father knows what's up, and although I'm not near perfect I like who and I am, and what I have to work with. I'm grateful for that.

A few of my favorite things...

2010-04-21T13:01:00.000-07:00

So for Easter I got my Roommate a board that says on the bottom "a few of my favorite things" and I am jealous. Even though I got it for her, I want to share with the world my favorite things... so this blog is my chance!!!

OK so I love Fire alarms at work. We all just go out side and hang out till they figure out a customer pulled it. But we totally get to go out side and chat. I love it. Nice sunny days are the best, and everything takes the state forever to figure out, so we end up being out side for ever!

I love my crafts! I have been transformed into one of those "old chicks" that has tons of scrap booking stuff but no one to scrap book. SO therefore I make cards. It's one of my favorite things, being crafty that is.

My sister and her babies moved to OHIO this week... One of my favorite things is being out side and by water... My parents house is on the lake. For the farewell party the kids, and the neighbor girl (she is cute!) had a Bonn fire on the lake and roasted chocolate covered Easter egg marshmallow things. SO GOOD! We also roasted other things but I think that was the most memorable. (the rest of the stuff was from the deli and I just put it on the roasting stick to make the kids think I cooked it- worked like a charm)

My other favorite things is this girl. My roommate MALORIE. She is so much like Jesus I learn so much. Plus we are fun. We love our selves and are usually up to no good. I love having a close friend at my same life stage and hang out buddy. Pillow talk is totally normal and texting each other is non stop. Shopping, tanning, tennis, swimming, Nails, boys, what ever it is this girl is DOWN, and it's fun. We miss each other when we aren't together, I just love it.

Another one of my favorites is this room/ apartment. This is my parents Missionary apartment. It's right down street literally less than a block away from temple square. Aside from the steller location... the smell. It smelt like my mission. I went in there and it was like over powering to me. I loved who I was on a mission, therefor I love to be reminded of the mission. It brought back alot of feelings and memories I hadn't thought about for a while.

Another reason why this is one of my favorites is because my parents are over joyed to be serving and doing what they are doing. I truly makes me so happy to see them so thrilled. They are having awesome experiences and I love hearing about them. My dad served before in Australia, but this is my mom's first time and it's so fun to watch.

CUTE huh? They are up and out of the apt by like 6:30. Which on my mission wasn't even allowed, however they do get off at 4 and can watch TV. Fair trade.

HOW CUTE IS THAT?

More fav's. This would be a picture of the RUMBLE that went down out side my window at work. For any of you who think I'm kidding when i say it's crazy here, I will start documenting the crazyness. Full on rumble 5 police cars, and people going to jail. It's a day in the life and part of the reason why I like it.

My roommate came to go to lunch the other day and she was terrified. cop cars, CSi etc. WEll turns out a guy stabbed his wife out side of our building then had a high speed foot chase with tons of cops... DRAMa.

Sky's beaming face in her awesomely hot prom dress is one of my favorites of all time.

My best Friends. They make me so happy.

Randomly dancing in the street is a good thing too...

LIFE IS GOOD.

How on Earth

2010-04-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

So, I've worked for the State for a "while" Now, and one thing you can gather from working in a political atmosphere is that nothing is settled and regardless of who is in office things will change.

When first hired I was living down town SLC (the avenues, I LOVED IT) but decided to take the job in Provo. So, with 2 weeks to wrap up business in SLC I moved. Everything worked out, and I was so sad to see my awesome amazing apartment that I loved so much, and was really hard to come by in the SLC area. Turns out it was a good move. I made great friends, and Career wise, great move. In prior posts you will read that it was tough, and a struggle. As and Eligibility Worker my nights were filled with memorizing state policy and program guide lines. This worked out cause I was on the rebound from a horrible relationship and terribly miss my bow who I had at that point been with for over a year.

Memorizing State policy was my way out of a really bad life situation. Lets look at some highlights: My trainer who I will adore even after I die. She was an older grumpy Hispanic lady that corrected my Spanish grammar every chance she could, and told me what was wrong with my case management skills. Well, we ended up taking lunches together almost every day, doing temple work together ( she took me to the Manti temple for my first time- breath taking) and our days frequently had a therapy "session" for Cheryl and she saw allot of tears (to be fair I saw allot of her tears).

We played cards together after church on Sunday, and after 7 months of close Friend ship to her I found out she had a son my age, lets just say fireworks. I loved him. He treated me so so good. So kind, and SO handsome, Hispanic, and just cute. He was not an active member, which worked out for me at the time cause I was a fence girl. I hadn't decided what was going on in my head so I justified letting go of a temple marriage because of his Kindness and his STELLAR mom. I think I fell in love with her and he was a HUGE benefit.

He ended up being the first guy to break my heart. LIKE full on tears for a couple weeks. The hardest part was his mom usually cried with me. I didn't cry that much when I called off engagements. I think it's really hard to end things when they are so nice, and so cute and you just don't understand why. I carried on for a while, like a month of tears, but now retrospective it was a very good thing of him to do, and I know it was one of the hardest things he's had to do. (he's now getting married in the temple, active church member!!! I'd like to think I had a small part in his coming back and all the scripture studies weren't pointless)

So then. I felt like something was going to change. I had this feeling that something big was going to happen. Well, my lead worker gave me a priesthood blessing there at work in the Provo office because of my uneasy feeling. Hours later we found out there would be "changes" and I would be having to apply for my job again. What? Yes that's how the state works. I didn't re apply for my job in Eligibility. I decided I wanted to serve people and that my policy knowledge could be used for a greater good, so I looked into the position on the other side of the State Department. I applied for jobs all over the state. I received offers from every office, and every position I applied for. When I interviewed in Ogden, oddly enough I got lost down town and actually ended up walking down an ally (one of which I would never never walk down now) little did I know... Ogden felt right the second I walked in the door. I knew I was moving there, but still wanted to know what the heck was going to happen before I made any final decisions, as far as offers from managers.

The same night I interviewed in Ogden, I got a call from the manager off the office at 8 pm (well after business hours). She stated she would do anything to get me to the Office and asked me what it would take to convince me... DUH. Money. So I got a raise and started a new office, new ward, new friends, new everything. It was hard, but quickly the little miracles started to show. I was dating quite a bit at this point and after my other boy Friend didn't feel ready to settle down for anyone, but I enjoyed male companionship and the "benefits" that comes with not so serious relationships.

In Ogden I have benefited from serving the public in so many ways. I have worked as a community liaison on boards for domestic violent advocacy, I've represented the State at different Educational community meetings, and I've served the x felon community with pride. I Have learned deep and eternal lessons of the atonement, lessons that i could not have learned in any other situation. I've also served and used my Spanish language skills daily, which has blessed my life tremendously.

I have sent 2 of my dearest and best Friends on missions. My life would not be complete with out those kids, Jason and Joshua. The shining sparkle behind their Auntie's eye. I had no idea the pride and happiness that would come from those kiddos doing what I know to be true. I experienced one of the scariest things of life, Our dear Joesph and his seizure. My little heart could not take anything happening to that kid. My parents have turned in mission papers, and retired making my childhood home history. I felt so defined by Bakersfield and my roots there, saying goodbye to my childhood house was almost a crisis. Luckily I have made close and dear Friends here in Ogden, and I've walked the halls of the Ogden Temple. I think this move was a HUGE Success. HUGE.

All this being said and thrown out to the "blog" world, really I just need to process things. I'm getting another feeling in the gut. I hope my gut feelings are real feelings and not me running away from Healthy situations.

I'd like to be bored in my life by staying put for a bit, just cause I think its healthy. On the other hand allot of changes are being made. I've decided I'm ready for a "more serious" relationship (marriage- dare I say the M word) , my sisters moving across country (I want to go!), and work is completely restructuring, and I could very easily get orders to move with out notice, and who knows where they'd send me, doing who knows what.

That being sad, My life is in the hands of a Father I trust 150%, my life is evidence that clearly he knows me, and knows my heart. I am but hot metal in his hands getting worked and molded to what he wants. Lets hope I'm moldable.

Just funny.

2010-04-14T09:52:00.000-07:00

SO we found these cheesy shirts at the gas station and with out hesitation we all agreed to buy matching ones and get pictures done. how often do you find people who just like to look dumb with you? True friends. But we had so much fun doing it!

Easter, In Rewind status.

2010-04-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

When I was on my mission, I would show people this picture of Christ. Then I would proceed to tell them I was one of the angles on the Right and show them where they were in the picture also.

There was this Cute little boy, Oh my those Hispanic kids are adorable!!! His name is Shemblom and he use to call me "La hermanita Angel" "sister angel" cause I infiltrated his brain to think part of this picture was a self portrait. I laughed allot about it, however on a deeper level I'd like to think I'd have a front row seat to this experience due to my undieing faith. *Something to work towards, no?*

So I'm Mormon. Easter means a couple things for us Mormons. First and foremost, it means Christ has Risen!! How grateful I am to know my Savior, and have him be an entrical part of my life. I am so grateful for that. So grateful. Life is so much easier when you can give all your issues to some one else and not have to fret about them. Especially, some one that loves you unconditionally and will always, unconditional of your short comings. I know this to be true, and as President Hinckley once said, "My gratitude knows no bounds, My Love for my Savior has no end, My God and my Best Friend." He has saved me from my self, and from my short comings and I can not wait to meet him at his feet. I read 3 Nefi where he came to the American Content and read about the experience the people had when he came and I can't help but feel a little longing for home, a little home sick. It seems like no matter what, there's never enough of my Savior in my life, and I am so grateful I feel that.

This picture has been said to be the most correct Of Christ that we have on earth. I'm not sure if this is a Mormon legend or truth, however I know how I feel when I see it. He is my Savior.

After deep thoughts come Fun thoughts! My family also does this thing that is actually Mexican, Cascarones. If you know me at all you know I'm like 7/8 Th's Hispanic... true story. Therefore, we do cascarones. This is my mom and dad's first year (they've always been in Cali for cascarones, dad working as a CPA on the side you know when Tax season and end of year is and plan life around it.)
However, You can clearly see dad adjusted Quickly.

My Poor roommate enjoyed her un birthday on Easter. She is going through the temple, and had some what of a taxing experience when she bought her Garmy's. I think if you have ever made the decision to take a big step towards eternal progression you can Identify with the emotional roller coaster that happens. Tiss true. I am a deep believer in Sister Hinckleys thoughts when she said something like... " We must care for each other, so we can sit in Heaven together." (or something.)

My dear hermana, I deeply care for this girl. Knowing the struggle that comes with making really awesome life choices makes me want to wrap my big relief society arms around her and protect her from the heart ache. I had in my room my Motto in high school, "Every thing is difficult, before it gets easy" Is it not true? Life is so so so hard, then you figure it out, it's fine.

Then my Family. Having had surgery and really hating life in general for a couple weeks. These people are the ones I'm so grateful to have by my side. They have saved me. I don't give my family allot of Credit, some times I don't recognize that being an active family member is an elective not a requirement. I am astounded by what these people do for me. Again, my gratitude knows no bounds. I have a song that I would like to quote, it's by Ziggy Marley (represent!) But truly expresses how I feel.

wanna thank you for the things you've done

I wanna thank you for your generosity

and I'll never be alone,

that's because you are my friend

that's because you are my friend.

Been through thick and thin together

through the ups and downs,

yet we still remain and

I can talk to you forever

[Chorus]

I wanna thank you for the day and nights

I wanna thank you for the breath of life with out you I'd be lost

[Chorus]

Just as long, just as long as you're my friend

that's because you are my friend, you are my friend

Some times I forget that my family is making a choice to serve me, and it is not a REQUIREMENT for them to do so. It's not their fault I have chosen not to be married yet thus putting allot of burden on their shoulders that would other wise be a spouses, I'm grateful for their patience and love for me. They tend to help pick up pieces, after failed engagements, Work re assignments which means moving with days notice, Medical CRAp, and any thing else you can imagine. These people are golden.

More Cascarones!
Seriously Fun!

My Easter basket. Mal and I decided we wanted baskets. I think it was mutual that we just love shopping for each other, and so fun to give!

More pictures...

2010-04-06T10:26:00.000-07:00

So the twins and I had special time with out MAL. FINALLY. LOl but for real, after a day of family togetherness, I was missing my boys. So we went to a movie (Titans: which I loved and they did not) then we decided 12 am, it's so early why on earth go home? So we drove around a bit, and after a scare of an almost road trip to Eden (thank heavens that didn't happen, fork in eye), we decided it was Mal's Un birthday.

So we found decor... at wal mart (who else is open in Utah conference weekend at 12:30 am) and we found this really funny wedding cake topper... Me and "the boys" chewing our Gum...

Our feet-sies. My shoes are amazingly cute. like to die for cute.

and again the twins.

Oh Jack and the topper... looks all too familiar...

2010-04-01T15:26:00.000-07:00

I know it doesn't look like it, but this picture is amist the HELL. My nose is so swollen and actually has cast's in it. Don't let the smile fool you... LIFE SUCKED. My freind Erika and family!!! They met us and ate with us. SO fun, and wow beautiful.

The baby! She laid with me non stop during my recovery. Little miss thang.

The kids slept by me and helped my spirits. They were so Dang cute!!!

Jen came to visit!!!

Blythe is dang cute too... I must say they are turning into quite the young women.

2010-04-01T15:12:00.000-07:00

The Best food ever! This was my meal of choice before surgery... Does it get better? I'm grateful for peru just cause the food is awesome. and the party crew eating...
It was Randy's birthday so she sang for us!

This picture is not related at all, I just think I look cute in it :)

and more... of mom and dad's party

2010-04-01T15:06:00.000-07:00

The After Party.
The mission display. I'm proud turned out nice. Shot out to Amy, my sis in law. We make a steller Team!

Mom and dad in front of the family picture table.

The center peices! This would be the memory table.

And the drinks table. Again, shout out to AMY. (andrew did the cups)

More Pictures for your Pleasure

2010-04-01T14:58:00.000-07:00

Nick and Randy at the store in Cali. Always amazing to me that theirs liquor everywhere, I'm so UTAH now... Kinda lame of me.
LOOK AT THAT TAN.

Jack and I wrestling over some nasty half raw egg... EWwwww

Zach and I at his work... So fun

Road trip to LOGAN, its Beautiful.

so doubles if you have facebook, but why not...

2010-03-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

I don't know how I can have them, I have about 30 apples of my eye, and pretty soon I will have 2 twinner apples!!! I'm so THRILLED. This little girl is one of those apples... I just can't get over it. MY roommate will in the hospital. At this point I was actually feeling very happy, and man those drugs were awesome.
My first trip to Logan. I was converted. BEautiful.

Potty time, and why not a photo shoot?

Just out of surgery. So Hot!

Pictures will be following!

2010-03-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

Well, Needless to say life has been crazy. My grateful list goal was shot to heck. I think it’s been over a month, and I have ample excuses. Let me give you a few (I will go into more detail on each later in the post):

SURGERY. Surgery, and SURGERY.

Oh MY Hell life sucks after surgery. People say that, but the reality is IT REALLY REALLY sucks. They ended up doing a lot more than they thought they would have too, and I ended up taking 2 weeks off work not just the 1-week like I had hoped. (That just means no vacation time for a while).

Let me tell you details: they cut out my tonsils, and adenoids, then they cut back some of my nose (the actually bone), then re constructed the inside of my nose (20 stitches on the inside and casts holding it open) and then the kicker… they found a growth in the air passage way under my left eye so they drilled into my skull and cleaned it out. OUCH.

I was bruised from the drilling, and actually ended up throwing up blood in the hospital and ripped my incision making recovery really really hard. I could only sip on warm things, Coco and ramen was my life. It was awful.

On the other hand, my sister Teri was my mom in the hospital. She saved me. She went right into go mode and made sure my business was covered. She got pissed that after I threw up in the hospital, and 5 nurses were like looking around clueless as to what to do, she snapped them right out of it. Heaven sent Teri!

My roommate Malorie stayed the night with me and took me potty… I could not walk alone and she was so kind. We had 1 am photo shoots were it looks like we both went under the knife, what sympathy she has. I love her, and feel so grateful we live together (moving to Ogden really was an answered prayer wasn’t it?)

Then Ceri. Oh ceri. She put up with my post surgery care and she was AWESOME. Since I had never had anything medically done before I was so grateful to be some where with a sister who was so aware of the need.

My medication ran out, (God bless the makers of Lortab) but I went all weekend with out some before we hit up the doctor on Monday. Let me tell you, and apologize to those of you who received hate texts. I really am a nice person, just in A LOT of pain. Tons.
Anyway, I felt like an update may be needed… now that’s over with we can get to fun stuff right? Let us hope.

Let the Marriage games begin, and may the best man win!!!

(I’m still the same Cher)

ahhh

2010-02-05T14:22:00.000-08:00

So I haven't been as good at keeping up with my blog... but every day is a new day right!

I'm so grateful for...

#1 The old guy at the cemetery. I live about a block away from a cemetery. I drive by it tons, and I have come to be touched by how people treat the graves of their loved ones. Specifically there is this one older guy. He goes and shovels the snow and the grave always has beautiful flowers on it. When I see him I think of how loved that person is and how I want to love some one that purely one day.
#2 White feelings. I am SO excited! I'm getting all the fillings replaced in my mouth! FINALLY. This has been one of my goals for years. I am so excited and thrilled. Getting all these replaced checks off one last thing from my "before I get married" List.
#3 Samantha. A couple months ago my friend Samantha moved to Utah. I love her. She and her husband are from Louisiana and got stationed here, he is a Captain in the Air Force. I just adore them. They have that cute southern accent I came to Love will I was "staying" in Tennessee. Not only that, but she is such a good friend and fun to be around. She is a therapist for people who have attempted Suicide so the stories never end!!! LOVE IT, LOVE HER, LOVE the Accent.
#4 mineral make up. What more needs to be said?
#5 Buying my niece a wax kit. AWESOME she does my eye brows. We tried to do my legs but all i can say is OUCH. My female moustache should be scared. Very scared.

All time high

2010-01-26T15:48:00.000-08:00

3 posts in one day? Hold on to your panties cause it's true!

One last thought... ME little ol Cheryl, is at a record high for stalkers from the work place... Hey not everyone can do it... I guess the tanning is doing it's job...

On my way.

2010-01-26T14:58:00.000-08:00

So I was on my way to the doctor feeling so anxious and yuck about scheduling surgery... and I saw some really cool things...
1) A man painting the window for valentines. LOVE IT. I thought for a second... "people still paint windows?" and yeah they do. It made me feel warm inside for some reason.
2) I looked over while I was driving and saw a really old guy driving his car picking his nose. I again got warm inside. He had this friendly glow to him, and I thought to my self "I bet he's someones really cute old grandpa" My grandpa (my mom's step dad) and I were close (through letters and summer visits) (in fact he was the only person that consistanly wrote to me on my mission- pretty good for an atheist) we still hold hands when i get to see him, but I've always wanted grand parents. I don't really have any memories with any other grandparents. Some times I feel cheated out of the wisdom or love grand parents can offer, However, I just try to love my nieces and nephews that much more...
3) Of all the patients in the doctors office, mine was the only CD their computers could not scan. why? Well that's because My name is Cheryl Butler, and we really needed the test results. So, Cheryl is getting surgery done based off what the Radiologist says... and what the doctor can see.
4) The description of what my doctor says he's doing to me. Snot, and infection, and blood. mean while I'm tearing up and once in my car burst out crying. Do they not know that I have never had anything medically done to me and I'm freaked out of my mind... Seriously people. When you see a 28 yr old woman tearing up because of what your saying maybe something isn't exactly right...
5) the fact that if i wanted something cosmetically done to my nose, I could do it now. He asked me if I wanted anything cosmetically done... I responded "I like my nose" but now am second thinking it. Maybe a little bit here and there... Hummm... the seed is planted.

A day late... thats ok.

2010-01-26T07:26:00.001-08:00

So I've missed a day of Blogging, so much I can tell.
I had training this morning for Federal Job positions and can i just tell you, I'm super excited to be able to help people with the information I have. Not that I can give them preferred services, but that I now have great information that can really help people. I love being able to share my education I have been blessed with.

I started the HCG diet again, I am so proud, I went to burger King with a co worker and held strong, then crispy Creme Donuts, Plainly put, I AM AWESOME.

OK already my grateful list:

1) People who get to business. Don't really care about your family and kids, I'm not going to ever meet you again. Tell me what I need to know and let me get back to work. Thanks.
2) Ear muffs- so I can rock out at my own leisure
3) Acutane. I got one zit, It made me so so grateful for the treatment I went through. It was aweful but my face thanks me daily. I love you acutane.
4) the bigger band aids. I have been using smaller ones for my nail that is falling on and they simply... SUCK.
5) Salt. With out it I could not make it on the HCG thing.

Making up for yesterday...

6) Lemons. I love the lemonade made with stevia for the diet. LOVE it and usually have it when I'm not on the diet.
7) Work cars. I just think it's cool not to have to take my own when on assignments.
8) FHE. Even though Mondays are exhausting and I am so so tired, FHE is always a source of entertainment, and laughter. Life would not be good with out my Boys... Adopted nephews. (shout out Jack- I know you read this, Busted as of last night)
9) I finally took my Christmas decorations down. Maybe one day I'll get to Putting them away... Time for VALENTINES decor... Hearts everywhere!
10) I have a quote on my computer screen that states "never judge until you understand, and when you understand you will never judge." I'm grateful I put that up. I can see my guarded customers read that and the wall usually melts away. I'm grateful that I don't judge them, Its like one of my hidden talents and I'm not sure where I got it from. I can come face to face with literally a murder and treat him with respect, or a prostitute, or... what ever else.
I'm grateful for that. I think being able to not judged some one has given me allot of learning opportunities in life. ALLOT.

Happy are we!

Grateful

2010-01-21T08:03:00.000-08:00

I am much happier today. Thank you to everyone that has helped me with my getting through surgery stages. I'm not really at grips with it, but I am working past the thought that the Doctor may not abuse me while I'm out, and all my other wierd issues I obviously have. I think I will have more anxiety when it gets closer to the date, however right now I'm at grips with it.

I am in the process of planing my paretns retirment party. I'm feeling a little Like it's an uphill climb, but I'm also feeling very organized and prepared. Step one is complete: We have a location, date and time. The chapel is reserved. That simple fact has solved so many of my concerns.

Feburary 26th from 7-9 pm. IT IS ON!

Ok so grateful List...

1) The wet snow... it's easy to scrap off...
2) My big red boots, they keep my pants dry!!!
3) Shoe designers that put about an inch heel on my super cute boots.
4) MY SILVER EARING/ miracles. I found my lost earring!
5) clear band Aids. I love them.

News.

2010-01-20T07:41:00.000-08:00

So my news isn't as big as Other peoples...

But I'm having Surgery!

Mind you... I have never been in a hospital and never want to be in one. Medical stuff freaks me out big time. I'm getting my tonsils out, and Having my sinus's done... what ever they do to sinus's. It's about a 3 day hospital stay and 10 day recovery. I'M FREAKING OUT INSIDE.

So before I say anything else and start crying again, let me complete my Gratitude list.

1) Sparkly lip stuff. It tastes good.
2) Green, I look good in it.
3) Tanning beds, Gets rid of my stress in a natural way.
4) California oranges.
5) Body spray. I'd stink if we didn't have it...

I'm obviously not very happy, I'll go before my poison spills out...

2010-01-19T10:48:00.000-08:00

So here are some Pictures of our work breakfast. My team... basically my second family... I am serious about loving this camera... where has it been my whole life?

So This weekend was full of Fun times... Yet again. Life is so great. This would be 2 of my buddies playing boy band... We laugh so dang much and then end up on Mal's bed laughing some more. We always end up doing something crazy...

My Boy David came for a night this weekend. I let him drive my car... He did great!

And then we saw Brigg at a wrestling thing...

After the Dash Board Confessionals concert we went back to my place and played games, danced, laughed more...

We traveled from a far to see Brigg at his tournament. I AM SO GLAD THESE WARRIORS are in my FOREVER family. Such examples to me. Side note: I was feeling very emotional feelings about having David close by. I didn't realize how much I missed having Becky's Kids so close. I wanted to hug him non stop (I didn't do it) but I'm so grateful I get to spend Auntie time with him. I'm not sure he knows just how Deep the love for him is, so I'm excited to be able to show him... he is Cherished in ways he doesn't know.

I also got to go to the JAZZ game... You may have heard about it... it was one of the most awesome games I've ever ever been too!!! That would be Shaq on the floor chill'n out.

AND WE WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BY a 3 point shot at .01 seconds left... HOLY AWESOME.

OK there are many more pictures... If you look on face book I've added some there too. Long story short I need a weekend to recover from the weekend... It's a great problem to have.

Now time for Grateful list:

1) I am so grateful for... my feather pillow top bed. It's actually my sister Ceri's. I LOVE IT. I am so so grateful for it. So grateful.

2) Fresh Pineapple! Yum. I love the juicy ones that squirt out every where when you bite it... I think that's pretty much universal. MY sister Teri is allergic to fresh fruit, I feel for her, I'm pretty sure there isn't much better in life then Fresh fruit.

3) Dishwasher Soap. this week we ran out of it... It was my fault, my turn to replace it and just kept forgetting... WELL... I washed all the dishes By hand... The whole all of our dishes...WOWWY. I enjoyed it, I was in one of those rare and random "dish washing" moods... MY roommate was baking, I love it. I do dishes she bakes and we turn up the music. This day we listened to "go put your record on, play me your favorite song..." repeatedly for HOURS. One of the best days ever. PS. I didn't even eat the treats she made, I just like the smells and the fun singing and talking...

4) I love that I heart hand outs when I teach Relief Society. This weeks is... "Don't be a dum Dum (sucker) prepare for the future though work and Learning, It will be a (life saver) in though times. " I'm teaching Uchtdorf's talk " principles for any economy. CUTE. Also I had a seminary teacher that always and a quote box... each lesson she taught she had cut out quotes from the lesson so we couple have paste in quotes. I have adopted this and am so GLAD I had her as a teacher. I think it adds so much to the lesson for people to be able to take it with them.

5) Neosporin. Just plan old fashion gunk. I grabbed the stuff to go this morning and I HATE IT. It's a big Runny mess all over my hand... Whats wring with a tube? Are we really getting that lazy? PS. finger nail update... it's for sure coming off... TEAR. I soon will be a 9 nailed freak.

Mission letters

2010-01-14T09:46:00.001-08:00

I am doing so good at doing this every day!

So I'm not grumpy today, I'm actually happy and excited... Why? Well... Life is good.

Things I'm happy about?

1) Yummy Apple Juice. If your my sister Lyn you better not drink it... :) LOL
2) "Special jobs" I was asked to be one of 2 employees that are getting sent to Hill air Force base for special federal job search qualifications and training. I will be responsible for training my office. Might seem small to you, however, it's big to me. It means my Regional Director thinks I can hang... NeWS TO RANDY, I can hang, and I'm going to be the best federal trainer there is. Period.
3) Rolling Ink pens. The like gel one's that write so pretty and roll with great ease.
4) Funny twin things. My sister found shirts that say "I was planned but my brother wasn't" I laugh all the time over that.

5) Drum roll please... MISSIONARY LETTERS. I LOVE THEM. I'm talking about writing them. I love writing my Elders letters. I get so excited knowing that letter is going to make their days. I'm so STOKED to get them in the mail Knowing the next little hands that open that envelope our my Boys. Can't get over it.

Any one out there...

2010-01-13T08:42:00.000-08:00

So I'm grumpy today... that means i have to come up with 10 grateful items.

1) band aids... my nasty nail has started bleeding. Purple thick blood cause it has stored under my nail for so long... GROSS.
2) the button on my desk that my last super gave me "I am the future of America. Be afraid. Be very Afraid" I Love that she thought I was awesome... Confidence boost.
3) Text messaging. My roommate and I had a room full of Friends over last night and were able to carry on a whole conversation with out any one really knowing what was going on.
4) Color printers... I have saved tons by printing off pictures in place of actually buying them at the store.
5) My Spanish language. I can do things... Awesome things because of it.
6) Christmas cards. I still have them on my desk. Little bundles of love.
7) Pandora and ear phones. I tune out and just grove allot of the day (when I'm not with a customer or working info desk).
8) business cards, IT really sucks to have to write out all your info. I ran out this week so I'm especially grateful.
9) Good hair straighting stuff. (makes all the difference)
10) my blue eyes. I Love them. weird, i know... But I LOVE them.

Sticking to it!

2010-01-12T11:07:00.000-08:00

MOM and her sewing room! (Thats my qupte in the back there... "everything is difficult until it becomes easy" Lifes theme no?)

Flowers in yard back home... This is christmas break Mind you.

More plants back home in CAli. and my buddy Jack (who is a recent fav).

Gracie and Jake at the Family Party- Look at that girls Hair!!!

Jake is so happy! (And Sky is so dang cute with him)

Long lost cousins!

Cheryl and Gracie girl... Of course we are eating! and in Josh's Hoodie!

David and Aunt Cheryl Look at that hottie! David is AWeSOME.

Malorie and only the best Chicken in the state of Utah...

AVITAR!!!!!!!!!

Morning after New Years! Chinese!

Couldn't help but post this one! This is my girl Shelli at about 3 am on new years.

New years Dance! PARTY

Me and my sister on New years!

It's Snowing, ALOT.

The girls on New years.

The air Port In bakersfeild... The only way to go!

Christmas Break in Cali... Ready for church...

Amanda and Cheryl... BFF's since kindergarden!!! We actually Came out with the same out fit on down tot he same earrings... Yeah it's true. It was like that in the past and we are still conectted at the brain.

Baby Brett!!! SO dang Cute! Yes thats me with No make up!

Dad and His oranges... I think this is a GReaT Picture!

the Kids and the Garden... with grandpa.

See I'm working really hard at being "grateful"

1) I'm grateful for... Bobby Pins! can you imagine life with out them? We would all look poligamist!

2) Quarters. Good idea. can you imagine the line for soda machines if we had to use pennies... oh dear.

3) Post it's. I have them all over my desk with dr's apt's and random things on them. Every week I "weed them out" and realize I probably use far too many...

4) Stickers... just little spouts of joy randomly placed...

5) Sweater/ shirts. Cozy and comfy. Perfect for a 10 degree morning... Burrr...

My new goal..

2010-01-11T07:26:00.001-08:00

obviously I'm not good at blogging, so I've decided to incorprate my new goals into my blog... Hopefully my goals last longer than last years. I've made this a gratitude Blog. Let me explain, in High School I found that life could be really hard, So I started writing 5 things (not primary answers) that I was really grateful for. It worked and most of the time put alot of things into perspestive for me. I am not struggling, and I'm actually really happy right now, But it's fun...

Lets start off:

1) I am so grateful for my new tooth brush. It's an electric and I love it! I look forward to brushing my teeth now, I have my purple tooth brush and sparkly purple paste... OH the Joy!
2) silver ear rings/ ring. I got them from a co worker/ friend and they are from Mexico. I was talking to my brother over Christmas about his mission and he was talking about a city where everything is literally Silver. I smiled to my self, Yes I have ear rings from that little tiny city in Mexico and every morning I think of the people I love and adore.
3) I love love my little car. It came with a 10 inch sub wolfer, and I didn't know it at the time but blasting the music in my little car is a dream. I love it.
4) HOT Coco! I single handily keep this industry in business. Love it and literally couldn't live with out it.
5) Liquid eye liner. I didn't find this stuff till this year and I love it.

OK so quick recap: Christ mas was Perfect this year. I stayed the night in LA on Christmas eve after my plane was delayed from SLC. I ended up meeting a girl that was 33 lived in my parents ward in Bakersfield who was delayed too. We stayed in Executive Suits in the Winston Hotel down town LA. It was beautiful, I got all our food comp'ed and life was good. I flew into Bak's and went to the ranch with my Dad where my mom, Troy Amy, and their kids were. It was the perfect setting, perfect kids, perfect food, and awesome company. Very chill.
The ranch was alot of fun highlights: the deer getting so close we hit them with snow balls- that's right my brother in the stake High council hitting deer with snow balls, he's still a Butler.
I got to hang out with my parents back at the house. They are moving In feb and it was really weird to see the house so empty. I am grateful I'm in the position to go home and have one on one time with my parents as much as i have been able to have. My mom got list int he mall for an hour the day i was supposed to fly out of Bakersfield to come back home to Utah. I didn't even get mad, I got frustrated but thought in my head that one day I'd be at their funeral upset I didn't express my self differently. I was very proud of my restraint and actually hugged my mom telling her I adored her. I really do and don't want to think about losing them.

Then New years... So awesome!!! IT was perfect as well. I sent the day watching grey's and eating seven layer dip with my roomy and a Friend then we went to my sisters and played games- party! Really, and then off to the dance. The night ended at an early 5 am and all of us snoring. then the rest of the weekend went so great also. I love that since I have decided to be 100% blessings have followed, and my little heart has been taken care of. I should have known that would have happened.
the week after New years I spent throwing up sick and in bed. Yucky. However I am on top of the world now... Feeling great. I went visiting teaching and I am truly learning so much from one of my girls. I had a really hard time going to see her, we are extreme sides of the spectrum, however slowly it's getting great between us.

Life is good!

Also good news: I have a really close freind shout out lins- who is having twin BOYS and my sister is having twins (girl and Boy)... AWESOME. What blessing those spirits already are...

Head Cut Off...

2009-12-16T10:19:00.000-08:00

SO this year has come and Gone hasn't it? As I think back to the beginning of the year, living in Provo, under the BYU rules with a roommate who swore she was not "fornicating" then finding pr ego tests in the bathroom (I really don't care what the heck she's doing but don't leave something you pee'd on in my bathroom) eeewwww... To now living in Ogden, working with a completely different job, in a Totally different office. Oh how life has it's challenges.

I was asked by my co-worker what my new year resolutions were last week. I must admit that totally caught me off guard. Totally. I didn't even think of resolutions. He stated to me he wanted to get married and then winked... I turned around and Barfed in my mouth... The HECK, gross. However, Thanks to you for turning me to complete contemplation.

Lets focus on the Blessings of this yr first:
1) I'm alive. I made it another yr!
2) I watched 2 of my HERO's go on missions (Ecuador and Baltimore, how does life get better)
3) Although, a very serious condition (seizures), my sweet perfect nephew has not had one since he started his new med's and now is moving forward.
4) I have spent Seriously quality time with long lost Friends that I had lost contact with for Years. I have been reminded by those Friends of who my real self is, and what it is I stand for... shout out to Erika, Nik, and Amandita (all freinds since at least 6th grade, Amanda goes back to before kindergarten)
5) I have dated, and had so much fun, and have made my mind to look to getting married. Decision is the first step.
6) I have seen Miracles, mostly of my own heart, changing and softening. I started "Therapy" and have benefited from a whole different perspective in life.
7) I have started the process for grad school (talked to Law schools, and looked further into grad schools) and started applications.
8) I have traveled for the first time for work and work has paid for it... That's like what I had in my head of a true grown up job... like I'm a grown up!)
9) I have found Coconut oil!!! No wrinkles in my face!!! I love it! I frequently get told I look between 20-23.
10) I found HCG diet and stuck to it (Ok so not as much and I would have liked too, however I think even one day of success is something to brag about)
11) I have a nephew at BYU and a Niece in College in Arizona. (seriously where does the time go).
12) I went to my 10 Year high school reunion. Although I was very hesitant I went and I MASTERED it. I was scared to death of facing everyone. The best part was I walked away happy at what I've done, and where I am with my life. I am an extremely awesome person... How's that for cool?
13) I sat in the temple with my sweet nephew... Who thought that day would ever come? He is so much better than I ever have been.

That's all I can think of now... the list goes on Forever though. Lots to ponder and lots to look forward to. Here's to a Fabulous rest of 2009 and a Kick a@@ 2010. This is my year so get ready for it everyone!

(PS the fun Christmas festivities are in the next post, be ready ya'll are going to love what I've been doing to celebrate)

Funny

2009-12-10T11:52:00.000-08:00

**I need to update everyone on life, However this is just a funny thing i saw and in reality is much like a day in the life at work!***

Here are 10 real-life mistakes that illustrate what not to do when you sit down for your next interview:

1. Candidate answered cell phone and asked the interviewer to leave her own office because it was a "private" conversation.

2. Applicant told the interviewer he wouldn't be able to stay with the job long because he thought he might get an inheritance if his uncle died -- and his uncle wasn't "looking too good."

3. The job seeker asked the interviewer for a ride home after the interview.

4. The applicant smelled his armpits on the way to the interview room.

5. Candidate said she could not provide a writing sample because all of her writing had been for the CIA and it was "classified."

6. Candidate told the interviewer he was fired for beating up his last boss.

7. When the applicant was offered food before the interview, he declined saying he didn't want to line his stomach with grease before going out drinking.

8. An applicant said she was a "people person" not a "numbers person" in her interview for an accounting position.

9. During a phone interview the candidate flushed the toilet while talking to hiring manager.

10. The applicant took out a hairbrush and brushed her hair.

Happy Heart.

2009-11-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

Letters From Ecuador... If you have served a mission you remember feeling these feelings...

(Actually Jason letter)

hey my dearest aunty!

Theres moments here that i feel like i just want to go back home and do nothing, and then its like my ADD gets super insane and suddenly its been a week and i don´t know what happened to my time! I´m all over the place here, its crazy. My problem is that i dont have a middle, i´m either really happy or crazy sad. My companion is being driven up the wall probably, doenst matter he jsut got made district leader so now i get to do splits all the time!! yay! the spanish is hard but it really doesnt scare me much anymore, they know im a gringo and can deal with it. I lvoe you my dearest aunty and can´t wait to see you again! lvoe your missionary

Elder (jason) shelton

What a special Angel!!! This kid is my joy. He sneaks his Little Aunt Letters (I'm sure they are approved) and I love that we get to communicate intimately (i feel like I'm sitting on his bed once a week and squeezing his little hand) how I love him...

OTHER GOOD NEWS. My sister on Saturday night was frightened by what seemed to be a miscarriage. I talked to her, and I'm not sure the world knows this, but she put the matter in the Lords hands. Off she went to the doctor on Monday and WOWWY TWINS!!! Not just one, But 2!!! Happy, doesn't describe. thrilled? not even close! ELATED! Beyond Elated.

Also, service auction at Church, my authentic Mexican Dinner when for 45$. HOLY HOLY HOLY.

It's a good life...

More for Dear Virgy!

2009-11-18T13:16:00.000-08:00

Read the Prior Blog Before this one... it's a cont.

My friend from High school, ERIKA. We see each other some times more than other times... here are some of our pictures. Her kids are breath takingly beautiful.

I was able to Go watch Hayden play foot ball, I couldn't find his pictures they are some where... I did find this pic of Gracie at Haydens gAme. It was cold, (red nose) and dang she is so cute... SO CUTE. She has got me wrapped around her little finger. Halloween!!! I looked awesome! my roommates and I had a party. Earlier that day was very stressful, my Nephew joe had some issues so by the time of the party I was in need of an escape. if I wasn't Mormon I would have DRUNK, however, i am Mormon, and a good one... so I had 4 red bulls and a red bull shot. HOLY COW. It was so fun.

I don't know if I'd recommend it, HOWEVER, I danced the night away. In Utah people are very reserved and a little judgmental (ok alot judgemental) so the red Bull gave me the extra courage... LOL These are my Roomies, CUTE girls. We had a good time.

My new Earrings! We heart Brigham City's Peach Days!!!

I died my eye brows on a cold Winter snowy day... things get wild when there's nothing to do...
(All my Christmas shopping is already done and wrapped)

Holly and i enjoyed my favorite food at 3 am.

I think thats really all for now... Love ya!

This One is FOR VIRG!!!

2009-11-18T12:26:00.000-08:00

Virg and i were talking, very pleasantly on a cold winter snowy day, and she mentioned (chewed on my BUTT) for having not blogged... Let me tell you... when Virg Chews, I listen!!! (I heart virg and she knows it) So what we have in Very Very Random order is the last MONTHS of my life...

JOSHY Poo my Sweet Nephew Got his mission call!!! BALTIMORE or BUST! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? I don't know why but this was such a freaken surprise I couldn't believe it. I needed to go to Cali for My 10 YR high school reunion so I recruited Mike, Teri, and Josh, we drove my car down and had a party! It was actually really fun.

Josh ended up going through the LA temple that weekend, which was awesome, so we drove in a Thursday night, and drove to LA on Friday. Teri doesn't look good, She ended up having some serious medical Crap go down, so we'll excuse her very focused face. I LOVE LA.

I got transferred to another office just after my trip for a month. I helped train some new employees in an office about 45 min from my usual abode. The state paid for me to take the train, but BOY WAS I GLAD TO BE BACK TO MY OFFICE AFTER THAT MONTH!!! I can't say that enough times. My office Toilet papered my desk while I was gone. I didn't realize how close I had gotten to my new office family in such short time. I love these guys.

We had to take pictures for the regional director and of course I grinned it up. (I sit next to the camera guy so he basically let me have a photo shoot... this is the best we got out of it.) I'm the one with the thumbs up back there...

Long before my trip to Cali I had an awesome fun date!!! So fun. my friend Holly and I went out with these hotties, seems like forever ago, but it was a party. I wanted to go to the Boys to Men Concert so dang bad... I had Pandora'ed their music all month before and we get there. SOLD FREAKEN OUT, are you kidding? Nope they aren't kidding. We danced out side the gate... So fun. The Guy... HOT. He doesn't love me. Which was ok with me so no sad faces. (looks aren't everything folks)

my friend Holly, we went on the date, but we also work in the same office. my buddy let her join in on the Photo shoot. I'm telling you, It's a party in Ogden.

The rest of the toilet paper, and my DANG cute red New jacket... LOVE it.

I ended up confiscating the camera guys camera and before I knew it this was set out to my team at work... How'd that happen?

My Nephew had a birthday, with him leaving on his mission I felt like I needed special autny time...

So bowling we went (of course his buddy had to go... (rolled eyes) ) When we went tot he alley the nasty bowling guy was hitting on His aunty hard core, so my nephew and I decided we were going to switch up his sign as revenge. The sign use to say "join us for x-treme bowling Fri & sat" it took me a while but I came up with this change to the sign... YES I did do that, I am 28 yrs old and changing a sign is not below me. I'll admit it.

This guy was nasty. As we were walking out me and my 19 yr old accomplices were giggleing and nasty old guy winked at me and said "come back" and I was like... You bet ya, it was league night, I wonder how long it took before they noticed.

I also made it to Haydens football game, I have pictures of Hayden playing some where I couldn't find them.

This is my Baby nephew driving us back to Utah. I had a "dang" moment... First of all, when did he get old enough to drive, 2 of all when did he start driving MY car, 3 of all, mission call? What? 4th of all, he was included to an adults only trip to Cali? 4th of all, Endowed? WHAAATTT? 5th of all DRIVING US BACK TO UTAH? Hold up.

IN CASE YOU FORGOT WHAT I LOOK LIKE WITH A MENU IN HAND.

My good Friend from kindergartens KIDS. Yeah she has 2 of them... NUTS.

They look bratty and she'd agree with you, I think they are dang cute. AND probably much cuter than my pale red headed kids will be.

This is her! My Amandita. So many story's with this girl, Truly friends for ever. Her mom gave me My first beans and Rice. (Like real beans and real rice)

Just busy busy, there is more to come...

UP DATES and LOL's!

2009-09-05T15:32:00.000-07:00

Hey Look, I'm an AUNTY!

Brett Bootla was born to Troy and Amy on Aug 26th! That's the only picture my brother sent to me so I made it 8*10 size and posted it in my office (the display which is being demonstrated.)

AHHH... can't wait to get my lips and hands on the baby...

My sister is HOT. This is a kinda funny picture... Long story short, my nephew Joseph had a seizure and the EKG found seizure activity after the seizure went down... SCARY. So Joesph had an appointment for an MRI at Primary Children's Hospital. I was recruited as the party activity committee and my main purpose this morning was to have so much fun our little Joe wouldn't sleep in the car (so when they gave him is "kiddie cocktail" he'd actually sleep). Ceri is hot as always, and I am happy to say mission accomplished. I took Gracie to my Friend Erika's house while Ceri and Joe did the testing.
Let me tell you, that is not something I ever want to see again. My sister caring her baby to the hospital... on top of that she shaved his head the night before so he looked like a cancer patient. YUCK. The MRI came back A-OK and Little Joe is just more prone to seizures than other kids, but we thanked our lucky stars (and Heavenly Father) realizing that day could have been a HUGE life changing day in our lives, and turned out Joesph is a super funny DRUNK (he's giggly).

This would be LEO, my latest Boy toy... when I say toy I mean just that. FUN. Colombian, and Italian. Columbia Native, AMAZING SPANISH (he talks and my heart melts), Latin (that's what we have in common) just like I like them.

MY Fiesta De CumpliAnos!

How do you say awesome in Spanish? Oh yeah Dallas! It turned out that my buddy Kirk, Dallas, Erika, me and Leo were the only party animals that night. NONE the less, so so so fun.

These are the only pictures I have of the evening. Dallas showed up in a shirt and tie, I was thinking... "Um have you ever been around Hispanics? They are going to think your immigration and clear out of here" Well, the whole restaurant cleared out... LOL Joking- he actually did well, this is him singing some song in Spanish about making Mayonnaise?? NO birthday present needed, just Dallas in a Spanish Karaoke restaurant singing in Spanish.

The second photo is him doing the mayonnaise dance??? I couldn't control my laughter. He OWNED the mayonnaise dance.

Special thanks to Erika! She gave me my only birthday present of this year... Tommy girl perfume. I'm officially past the body spray stage and on to perfume. LOVE IT (mostly because it came from a dear friend who loves me.)

Leo rocked the night too with his authentic Salsa moves, he totally scored because of them (I mean got made out with in the parking lot by the birthday girl) Dang I sure have a sore spot for those Latin guys.

Happy Birthday to YOU!

2009-09-01T09:14:00.000-07:00

It's funny how when some one saying something to you, I just instinctively Belt out "you too" or "happy birthday to you too" I've been laughing at my self all day for it too. (NERD)

I love that there is one day a year that you get to hear from everyone one you love that they love you too. The best is that I have Friends that frequently hear me say "TE AMO" and my nieces and nephews are indoctrinated by it from the second they are conceived, but it's still just fun to hear it and have a special day for it.

I have been blessed with such good friends, really good Friends that have been with me for years and years. I know that this is a rare find. Especially while I'm still so dependent on the help of my Friends being single in a predominately LDS culture that really values marriage. Let me tell you, I am so incredibly grateful for those who are around me and know they are my special angels!

Every one knows my friend Erika. We "grew up together" roughly used, she was in the lauralglen ward, and I in Panama. HOWEVER, she has been so good to me this

last year. Like unbelievably good. I love that I can tell her what ever and she just laughs and tells me I'm retarded. No judgement and total love. I know that from her, and I'm grateful for that. ***We have current pictures of our hotness but ERIKA hasn't down loaded them yet (love ya) I'll post them when she does :)

My other really amazing Friend Is the Power House LINS Wintch, (oh yeah she married knowing her last name would be Wintch, the best part is that her maiden name is JOLLEY so essentially it's Lindsey Jolley-Wintch: it makes me happy every time I hear it) Well she blasted me with this email and let me tell you... My heart melts... I'll share:

The Pictures are described in the following: Lins and Cher at Lins Marathon, she's like an Olympic runner. Matt and Lins some time, I love Matt too... he does stuff like: has a last name that's Wintch, lets us take pictures of his fogged up glasses, and always gives me a hello and good bye hug- no awkwardness, and he hooks me up with his friends (we'll forget they live in their parents garages). Of course Lins had to take a pic in front of the Wiener Mobile (OF COURSE) thats why I love her.

Here are just a few of the reasons why I love Cheryl (you):

1. you are honest
2. you are honestly hilarious
3. you speak espanol
3. you consider me your hermana
4. we grew up together, even though we really didn't
5. you know all the drama from efy- naturally we are now friends for life
6. you are ambitious and smart!
7. you are BEAUTIFUL!!
8. you are a great auntie
9. you are a fantastic friend
10. you make me happy, you're fun to be around, and you are the life of the party
11. you are self-less and are always thinking of others

Love you Cher-Bear! Have a great birthday week!
your friend,
Linds

**HUGE compliments. There is no other joy in life but to be sincerely loved by those who surround you**

I don't mean to exclude anyone and I really am grateful for my friends. I think the most underestimated friends that I don't talk about enough are my Sisters. They Put up with such Crap from me and sometimes I think that just cause it's sisters they have too, but in all reality I'm am sosososo blessed that still answer the phone when I call. (I do realize with Call id they don't have too, and PS Lindy I hope this really makes you feel bad for not answering when I know you were there!)

Long story short, I know I'm really lucky and Please know your LOVED!

2009-08-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

OK, so this is Holly. (I know, really I do have 2 close Friends named Holly and it's a trip!

We like BOYS. Actually thats all we talk about (kinda) is boys and getting married. I hooked us up on Hot dates and we (holly and I ) ended up having the time of our lives... it was so fun! We went to the county fair and one thing you gotta love about HOlly is she is ALWAYs taking pictures.

Ahhh cute... thats me... weird angel and double chin... but me none the less. The picture above, you can't see it but the goat was eating my hair... and I was screaming... it was really gross. REALLY gross.

We Sat by the Cows,
and that was really really gross too... I had one flip flops and for some reason forgot what a fair was all about... GROSS!!!

I got my toes done for the date... Yep gel toes... apparently they last 2 months (See I'm totally a nail girl... lol ) but they turned out so cute!!!

Even more to come... But it's a start.

2009-08-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

I took my nephews shopping! David got shoes (really cool ones he's wearing in the pic), Tucker got 2 fishes (I don't know when I'm going to learn that they don't live)... as a matter of fact... the guy at pet smart looked at Tucker and would not sale us a fish... so we had to go to wall mart. I was kinda mad at the pet smart guy, but then it just made me laugh. You can see there was a bunch of candy purchased, I have learned in my many aunt yeaars that you can't forget the ones left at home, and Micah was so good! He let the day be about David which I thought waws really awesome of him. Brig went with us this day but slept in the car...

OK SO if you don't know what this is... BOX ELDER BEETLEs! and they are everywhere!!! I HATE THEM. One day I gave up the nice act and stabbed them with a pen. They literally are everywhere. I was hoping if I tortured one he would go back and tell his buddies not to mess with the BIG C. But it didn't work and we are stuck with bug carcuses... Oh the joys of northern utah.

My Sweet perfect angel nephew Jason went to the MTC. Before then there was plenty of good times...

He is so freaken CUTE. Like on of those "gosh dang if you weren't related to me..." Handsome. AND he's like amazingly spiritual. Like on FIre amazing.

Man i wish i had such a cool auntie.

My roommate Malorie. She has lost wieght too.... and looks fab.

Althought this pic was taken like 4 yrs ago... I thought why not post it? So here are the padres in San Fran.

If you know Cheryl you know that she's always at the lake if she can be... It is especially beautiful right now.

A little piece of Heaven given to us.

Oh Cher!

2009-08-17T06:18:00.001-07:00

So with everything going on I snuck pictures of me!!! I have many more pictures out there of whats been happening. However this is the one that I have readily available. I will do the whole down load and update the blog thing sometime. Mean while enjoy this HOT shots... lol

Nail girl!

2009-07-25T20:59:00.001-07:00

So... I'm a nail girl now... With animal Print. With the diet going on and still feeling lonely and not as happy in Ogden I decided to treat my self. Randomly one day my roommate and I went and did it. I am high Maintance and a nail girl (total waste of money but its a happy thing for me. )

ahhh babies

2009-07-23T20:56:00.000-07:00

Jerry's computer

2009-07-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

OK so I decided that when I'm on peoples computer I could just down load the ones there... because honestly I don't even have a camera... Like nothingmore than my phone... THIS is my Sister Ceri and JErry and there Beautiful family. Myah, JOe, and GraCIe girl. Just fun pictures I found and thought hey those are fun.

Teri's Computer

2009-07-23T13:28:00.000-07:00

So I'm on my sisters computer and thought to my self... I'll down load pictures that she has... Why not right?

This is my nephew Josh and his BFF Brooks. Brooks is the brother of one of my EFy girls that I tried to hook Josh up with 2 yrs ago... then turns out Brooks and his sister moved into the same neighbor hood as JOSh... HOLY COW. Small world (at the time she was living in Texas and I thought there was no way they would actually ever meet) BUT now they are forever connected by Brooks (and I'm so excited about it!!!)

Brooks is off to the Mish in Honduras. (which is sad, but Awesome!)

Everyone knows when you have teenage nieces and nephews you inherit like all of their Friends as your nieces and nephews too... I don't know this girls name with Randy, but it's her Friend... lol. This is Sky doing something weird at Joshy poo's graduation.

Josh is feeling like a grown up these days... Not looking half bad... (hottie). His mission papers will be done this week... Holy holy where does the time go. When you go to hold them after they are born you really don't think of this time... and how exciting and so incredibly sad it is...

This is my one proof I was actually at Josh's graduation. that would be the back of my head :)

Josh's random Friends at graduation... ? Flo (who speaks Spanish from Argentina!!!) Adam (free donuts)!! and then the other one who is so hot some times I lose my words... and he's like 16... AWKWARD.

This is Joshy Poo's graduation class... Go ahead try and count the minorities... Oh wait there are none...

MY sister Ceri Ann, Josh's grandma Jackson (who is like my grandma too she's so awesome) in the back ground is Josh's Aunt June and Grandpa Jackson. (Love them.)

Andrew is a 12 yr old boy... and this is usually the face you see on him. But he is a doll that we have alot of fun with. (Long live orange soda)

Josh now works at a donut shop (Free donuts!!! DANG I'M ON A DIET) and this is some random something they have at the shop...

SKY!!! at Josh's graduation. She is so beautiful. I wish I could pull her out of being a teenager and let her see who she really is... She is an amazingly awesome girl who literally has the world at her feet.

BLAH, Blah

2009-07-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

So life is busy, like crazy busy BUT totally boring at the same time. How is that possible?

I started The HCG diet on July 13Th and since then have lost a total of... 10 lbs!!! I am fitting into pants that I haven't worn in ALONG time. Weird. I look at the scale and think... not right, but then I get into my clothes and it appears to be.

I'm not going to lie. THIS DIET SUCKS!!! However, this is my first diet I've ever done, and I've never really reformed what I was eating and said "no" to things. It's a big mind game, HUGE and it's really hard when you can smell the aroma of yummyness you aren't eating. I am starting to realize how social eating is, and it's like people get offended that you are not eating their food. Lame. I will never force my food on someone or make them feel guilty.

However, I feel great! There is nothing like waking up in the morning and seeing weight be gone on the scale. There are rough days and things that I wasn't expecting to feel physically, But I feel so great.

Ode to Malorie!

2009-07-20T09:55:00.001-07:00

This is ME and Malorie! MY Roommate who has been very kind and made Ogden home... She is so Nice! This is us out on the town. It was our lucky night. 2 guys t alked to us (never mind one mentioned he had just come from the strip club) Hey- it's a start right?

point is, she is awesome and amazing and I really lucked out.

Family Reunion...

2009-07-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

Just a few Pictures. Our family reunion was at the end of June. Ya'll should check out my face book pictures if you'd like to see more... it was so fun.

PIcs from my Phone

2009-06-22T15:15:00.000-07:00

This kid is COol!!! As my nieces and nephews get older i get pictures sent to my phone like this one... (David!!! he is so happy and the funniest little guy... when I say little i mean big; he's already out grown his aunty and he's 12... I think...)

And also like this one... (Jen is so beautiful!!!) I think she's at a store or something...

And this one was to keep Joe quiet in Sacrement meeting... I'm a bad example! (Gosh dang he's huge!!)
Myah wanted in on the modeling shoot too...

Then Tucker, who I told him he could get anything he wanted and then talked him into getting these star fish from the natural history museam at BYU. (they were .10$ each) but I let him get 5 and he was so excited!!! He held on to them and didn't lose or break any!

Myah Loves to wake up her Auntie on warm sunday summer mornings (BOOGER)

Crapy weekend, Grateful Thoughts

2009-06-22T12:44:00.000-07:00

OK so... Updates...

This weekend was so bad! I just felt so sad and for no real particular reason. May family is at San Luis Obispo for our week long family reunion, and I'm in Utah. I don't fly out till Wednesday night, so i was left to wallow in my own pity all alone this weekend. (my rommies went out of town too).

HOWEVER I did contact Utah State about Grad programs and found 2 that interest me. I can start one of them in the Fall and the other in Spring!!! And both of them make me excited to study.

I also organized my closet (color coded), and organized all of my work clothes. I got new blinds put up and cleaned like crazy. (well needed trust me)

I also got to go to my old roommate Britney's bridal shower (love brit, and Love her hubby (soon to be) Kevo) it was good fun... pampered Chef does a shower which was a good time, and awesome easy idea for gifts.

After the Bridal Shower I got to go see Erika and Mikaela again. This time we hung out in the hospital and did her hair and joked with her. Can I just say she is the Cutest little girl. She's learning sign language again and they use pictures so she can point to what she wants. I love hanging out with Erika there, Mikaela is like a magnet for happiness. I was surprised that with all that has gone on in her little brain that she recognized me. Makes me feel like I should be doing more to visit and be a part of her little life. Erika and I went shopping, we enjoyed the normal Victoria's Secret trip and things for her kid-o's.

When i hang out with Erika I feel a little bit of home. I think it's because she knows so much of me, and I don't have to change anything. I know she'll be my Friend forever (we've been through so much) and I can have confidence in that. At one point in my life I thought I didn't need Friends like that, I'm realizing now that friends are an essential part of life.

I also got to talk to a Friend from back in Junior high days. We were on the Cheer squad together and oh my, the memories!!! Andria Bye! The good time kept coming. We are hoping to get together with our other Junior high click (Amanda Gomez, and Nicole Craig). I haven't talked to Amanda forever (like 8 yrs) but Nik and I hung out not too long ago. It's so great to be reminded of who you really are! As adults (term used very loosely) I have noticed we get so caught up in things that don't really matter... Take me back to Junior High when it was all about matching bathing suits, and cheer leading uniforms.

***Memory of the day*** Amanda Gomez and I were Best Best friends (since kindergarden). in 8th grade we both decided we needed a new swimming suit for the end of the year cheer leading swimming party. This was like the first time we ever went clothes shopping with out each other. After we went shopping we ran home to talk about our big "buys" and How so very awesome our new suits were. Usually we showed each other everything and shared everything, this time I think I went on family vacation then went straight to the party so we didn't get to show each other. As we got undressed for the pool to no surprise we had on the EXACT same swimming suit; color and all!!!*** Crazy. we just laughed. That's the kind of soul sisters Amanda is to me... Her mom was the first to ever make me BEANS, and now look, I'm like 88% Hispanic. I loved that after I got home from my Mission I went to her house and could finally talk to her mom in Spanish. I rubbed it in Amanda's face so badly!!!

A few more... one night i talked Amanda into sleeping at my house, (she was a home body and really a mama's girl) we snuk out to jump on the trampoline at my house at like 10 pm (we thought we were hard core). I still am laughing writing this, I bounced her on the tramp and she flew off landing on her arm on our basket ball court at my house. I could not stop laughing cause my dad had just mowed the lawn and she was covered in dry grass... She looked like a monster and she was crying. I laughed so hard that night I literally peed my pants. I talked her into not calling her mom (we use to get grounded from hanging out) and she was fine, but it was so funny. Also... The first time I took her 4 wheeling in my "jeep" we went in the fields by her house and I LOVED it... it was so fun!!! I took her up on this tiny hill... and she was so scared she PEED her pants... She made me swear i wouldn't tell anyone, and to this day I haven't said a word... If she reads my blog I'm in big trouble.

She also talked me into going to Prom with her and her date (she couldn't go unles I went, her parents trusted me to keep her "chase" (DIDN'T WORK LYDIA: thank heavens for hail Mary's)). It's true! I have a picture of her and her date then ME standing on the side all dressed up. Her mom made fun of me for so long, they said it looked like I jumped in the picture. but no, it was planned that way...

Long story short, I am so lucky to be in touch with my friends from the past. The first words are always "you were always so crazy" and I laugh... I take it as a compliment although I have no idea if that's what it's meant to be... I realize that who I am is so much a part of who they helped me become. I'm grateful i had such good freinds that kept me on the straight and narrow. In high school I took a ceramic class and I made a tile thing for Amanda, I think it works for all my BFF's... the saying goes "If friends were like flowers I'd pick a garden full of you!" and it is true. I wouldn't trade my quirky friends for anything! I love all my Sisters!

Many Thoughts.

2009-06-12T18:49:00.000-07:00

So with moving and everything changing in my small pathetic world, Much reflection has been taking place. So many thoughts and it's been a great time to really look at where my life is and where I want it to be. A few things I've found in my evaluation:

1) I'm not in law school... am I closer to that goal? HUmmm... well working at a good job looks good on a resume? True story it does, however I do need to be much more focused on my goal. I could be studying more (i really took a dive after the Ruben break up) and alot more focused on finding a school.

2) Where am I as far as dating guys I would like to marry? Not very good. I have this syndrome, it's called being retarded. The last guy I "hooked up with" was not good. My first sign should have been when he said "your so much better than I am, and you really shouldn't date me." Word of the wise, when a "bad boy" says that, they generally are right... trust the girl who has been retarded for alot of years.

3) Am I closer to my family? YES! My nephew got graduated from High School this past week and sitting with my sisters, and sister in law I was totally comfortable. I love them and have solid relationships with them... thats AWESOME. Also... My nephew got endowed, and even though I didn't make it to the temple I felt really close to him. (people with similar goals are better friends? yes i did call my sweet angel nephew my Friend... best freind)

4) Am I moving along in a career I can be happy in? I am furthering my self along... however not in a career where I want to be forever. It's a good start right?

5) What am I doing for my physical body? I completed a colon cleanse (sounds bad but actually felt AWESOME) and went Jogging. It's amazing how much of the emotional and spiritual gets taken care of when your taking care of your physical body (it's like connected or something?)

6) Am i completing My daily spiritual tasks that I have committed to be completing? Ok so Myah (my niece) bugs me every night before bed to read the Scriptures to her. It's helped me so much... i need a kid just so they will make me do the things I'm supost to be doing.

So... Solutions to the "problems"

1) one of my main concerns going to law school is my GPA. I graduated with honors in poly sci however I didn't do too hot in some other areas of focus... I looked up a few of the education courses at Weber State and also Utah State extension courses and I think a Masters Degree is in the making. Pros: Higher GPA for Law School (and more career options).

2) Although not dating guys I want to marry, I am "hanging out" with higher quality people, and thus will (hopefully) end up married to one of those higher quality people. You marry who you spend time with right? Not that I want to marry any one that I am hanging out with, BUT my expectations of guys has gone way up AND when you surround your self with people who thing your awesome you start to think it too? thats the goal anyways.

3) I need to spend more time with my family. It's such a hard balance. As a single girl I should be out with friends Finding Mr. Amazing, however I feel like I'm missing out on my Nieces and Nephews lives... and my family is what is really important isn't it? I figure the answer is that when I'm with my family it's real time. Every moment is time with Aunt Cheryl and every single person in my family knows that I love and care for them... One on one real love.

4) Career, starting a new position has revitalized my spirit. knowing I'm young and only gaining vacation time everyday makes me look forward... THE WHOLE WORLD IS AHEAD OF ME.

5) Physical body. I've notice my physical body has been an issue whether I admit it or not. I'm not me. After my mission I think it took alot more time shaking off the mono, and I think there was a bit of depression after the Brian ordeal, and then accutane. SO now thats all in the past, time to get to work. I commit to doing the HCG diet and exercising 4 times a week (hopefully more). Ps... my skin looks amazing.

6) Spiritual!!! Church with a smile... thats a BIG one. maybe I'll switch it up and go to the spanish branch. it seems as though the church is more true in Spanish... lol but I'm half serious.

So those are some reflections... and new goals "projects." I'm just so grateful. I got to spend time with my Sweet friend Erika today, We've known each other since High school and she is facing a Huge mountain in her life. I have never never seen someone so strong. I am truly blessed to see her strengthen. Truly.

Also, my dear Friend virg and her Blog. I heard once that to have a successful day you have to accomplish 5 thing... 1) Laugh really hard 2) Get your emotions going and cry about something 3) have a spiritual moment 4) say thank you and be grateful 5) hug someone

With Virg's blog I'm brought to tears every day. Every day I start my computer in the morning and look at holly's blog. The music comes on and it's about being happy... I think about what that means to her and who it represents to her and I have my emotional experience.

it's hard growing old and seeing your dear Friends have pain. I wish it was all wiped away and the world was perfect. However, if that was the case, I wouldn't be writing this blog and feeling the need to be better. How grateful I feel.

Weekend!

2009-06-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

Fun! (I need to learn how to turn the pictures)

So Fun... I'll go in order...

Friday morning I picked up my little bud TUCK and Oh my Goodness he is fun! We went swimming, (I actually promised Seven Peaks Water park, but he just got the swimming pool). I taught Tucker a song "Say no to Melanoma" and we proceeded to sing it while in the pool (SPF 50 baby!) Because I am still on acuate I took extra extra precautions to "say no to melanoma." Regardless of my efforts I was burnt about 2 inches on my back were apparently I didn't cover as much as I thought with sun block... Ouch. BUT Tucker Was so much fun to hang out with. He tried the pool but he enjoyed the jacuzzi more. he picked out all the bugs and was so adorable with all my roommates.

After the pool Tucker wanted to Go to "Wendy's" I thought to my self... I can do Wendy's. We grabbed some chicken nuggets and then Tucker learned the "frosty dip" (Which he enjoyed).

After the amazing lunch we watched a little Beethoven and then...

Headed over to the Natural Life Museum; L.L. Bean. It was fun fun fun.

Then Teri, Mike, Scott, and Randy came and moved me. I was officially packed up in an hour! We went to dinner. Rice King and then safely returned my little Tuck to his mom and dad. I feel so lucky for the help moving. My family Rocks. Teri and Scott are master moves who I literally could not have done that my self.

Saturday morning we (Teri and I ) went to a visiting teaching conference and then off we went to move. Josh and his buddy and also Andrew helped, and again, I am so lucky!!!

Saturday night I was home in Provo, my Buddy Dallas suggested I go to his 30+ ward on Sunday.

Dallas made me promise I wouldn't put them on facebook, so I'm not going to... However This is just after we worked out and he had on a mitt for some reason?

So here's the reason why is picture is on my Blog: he is so awesome. We are Buds, so no raised eyebrows, however he is one of the most up lifting friends I've had in a long long time. If you know of any amazing girls that are "older" let me meet them first and we'll see what we can do for dear Dallas.

**Also: being older in the church is rough. People have no idea whatt things they say that are just plain retarded. The church activity rate for people over 25 and single is less than 5%. (yep my bishop stands up and says it every Sunday). I have met allot of people and have had friends, however meeting truly faithful people who have integrity and hold tot he "rod" in all they do is so rare in this stage of life. Some times it helps to have friends in the same stage and just understand, and also Laugh. Kudos to Dallas, what an example!

Just when you thought it couldn't get better...

2009-05-21T16:44:00.001-07:00

An Auntie couldn't be more proud! They made it!!! (Sheltons; Thatcher, Safford or PIma AZ (I really have no idea which one)) left to right: Joel (in law), David(nephew), Tyler(nephew), Jen(niece), Jason(nephew/elder), Becky (sister), Jake(nephew).
Look how cute David and Jen are! I can't imagine what Tyler has planned with that swinging hand.

Tyler is a ROCK ROCK star and Jen floats my boat (she looks so good in white).

Can I just say that it is so cool that such good things are happening in my family. Tyler has decided to attend BYU in the Fall and Jen will be attending Eastern Arizona College where her dad works as a Chemistry Professor (free tuition). I am so proud of both of them!!

Three cheers!!!

2009-05-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

For Elder Jason Shelton! (gosh dang I love this kid)
Becky (my sista) and Jason (my rock star aka nephew)

I'm assuming this is him opening the call... Hey I have that same open mouthed smile...

Hooray! Jason's waiting is done! He's going to Ecuador!

I can't believe my little nephew is old enough to go... I totally remember the day he was birthed. Wierd, but totally amazing. I guess I'm going to Ecuador in 2 yrs.. Hooray for awesome vacations sites (and I'm sure he'll have a rock'n time too) I'm so proud of him.

Alot of Stuff going on... like always.

2009-05-13T09:17:00.000-07:00

Whats that song by garth... "the only thing study is everything changes..." correct me if i'm wrong...

It's like forever since the last posts... and Life has changed a bit. Lets make a list:

1) I've had a love affair.
2) I've been wiped out by strep (a whole week of work out the window, hooray sick leave!!)
3) I've been unofficially laid off my job (kinda).
4) I've interviewed for jobs all over the state of Utah and gotten another JOB in OGDEN... (comes with the highest pay raise... HOLLAR)
5) I've traveled to California 2 weekends out of the last 3 for the love affair that ended up being bogus (but well needed at the time).
6) met up with my BFF from high school and cried with her (it's been over 10 yrs since we've "really" talked)
7) attended womens conference at BYU and got with in 2 ft of Elders Nelson, and Perry (AWESOME, AWESOME)
8) held a retirement party for my mentor Lamar and cried about how much i was going to miss her... only to find the traitor invited her son (see prior blogs) and it was bad. (hence the love affair)
9) I've started on my soft ball team and loved it.

So thats life. It's crazy, but as Sherri Dew put it... "you must like it cause thats how you live" - at least i can admit i live off stress...
A few stress reliefs have been**I will be able to make it to the second half of the family reunion... shout out...** I'm flying directly into San Luis on Wed night and need a ride into Lake Lopez (any volunteers?)

For the most part alot of stress from the Job situation has been alleviated, and life is going to be ok. It's scary getting an email that states you could not have a job in 2 weeks... and it's nice to know I'm going where i belong...

Clear as mud...

Thursday!

2009-03-26T16:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Weekend to all! I got so much work done and am ready to hit the ground running. I just wanted the last blog before the weekend to be a good one... optimistic... Much love

Happy Hump Day!

2009-03-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

it's Tuesday! Which is my Hump day!!! (the week is half over!!!)
****I deleted all my blog links!!!! I don't know how I did it and I don't know how to add new links... HELP****

I'm sorry if the last entry was a bummer to everyone. I just didn't want to talk about it and wanted to refer people to the blog if they wanted the story. I have had an inner delima... I don't know if I should delete the entry or keep it up. I am debating it in my head. (?)

Plan of conflict resolution: I have decided that I am officially in "mourning" until this coming Friday. That gives me a good week and a half- I think that's appropriate. I have decided the appropriate dress is BLACK and the appropriate hair due is Pony tail. No, or very little make up. It's kinda funny but I've been a little grouchy. The best part was when some one at work asked "why all black and I looked so tired?" My co worker said "she's in mourning can't you tell?" It was pretty funny.

Joking aside, It's been hard. I don't know if I should cut him out totally or if I should leave a possibility there... but I have come to the conclusion that if he wanted a part of my heart he'd let me know, and I have to move on... TOTALLY.

Problem: I have enjoyed of time so much that getting back into my Lsat classes sounds horrid. I was so busy, it was nice to have chill time and have nothing on my mind. When I'm in class there is this little voice that says... "you should be studying" uugggg

This Past Friday I got to go to the Manti temple. Man- if you haven't been there... you need to go. It was amazing. Of course I cried through the whole thing, but it was so special. A temple worker took me and Lamar by the hand and walked us through sealing rooms... There I was standing and looking at sealing rooms with the lady who's son I've fell for... but just broke up with... It was rough. However... there is something so special about a temple with the "holy of holy's" in it. There were 2 brides and they were breath takingly beautiful. (which made me cry more)

Any how, I think it's appropriate that the weather SUCKs during Mourning week. Heavenly Father knows us that's for sure. I think I'd burst if it was all sunny and yummy.

But Good news, I'm almost done with acutane (my skin looks amazing!!!) and I'm planning to start the HCG diet next monday (keep the bad comments to your self) My teeth are super white (hollar) and I'm growing out my hair. I should pull out of mourning week with flying colors! (hopefully).

Also good news; looks like I can get the thursday off for the Family reunion. I think that thursday through sunday is just about perfect time for Cherylina to be blessed with the pressence of her familia. it was scary there for a minute.
***Thats life: as self focussed and meaningless as it is***
*****I HOPE YOUR IS BETTER!!! love to everyone****

the post no one wants to write; the post no one wants to read...

2009-03-19T11:18:00.000-07:00

K so After reading my last post of the excitement and how happy we were... I hope you all understand my little broken heart. I truly am sad about this, but respect and honor what needed to be done.

Monday night Ruben and I were talking about different things, and one thing lead to another... happened that I live a set of standards that he doesn't believe in (he has not been active int he church for 14 yrs and is now returning; we had gone to church every Sunday together). So on Monday night I started crying and told him that if it came down to choosing between the temple and him, I would chose the temple and I will not compromise my standards. His response was that he understood and he would do what ever it took to be together and he would respect my values...

Tuesday he told me he was ill and we didn't talk much...I went to the temple, and he had work etc. Then Wednesday came around and he was usually quiet. i knew something was up at this point and I kinda knew what was coming... He texted me at about 5 asking when I got of work and said the dreaded "we need to talk."

I got home from work in a panic. Feeling so much anxiety... and just super upset. I knelt down in my room and had a very real conversation with my Father in Heaven. I told him how I was falling in love with Ruben but how I believed in the temple ordinance and needed his help. I told him that if Ruben and I weren't suppose to be together, to make it OK some how...

I got up and still felt really anxious.

I saw him walking up to my door and I popped my head out. He was clearly upset... visibly shaking and honestly looked awful. I grab his arm and asked if he wanted a hug and he said no. THE SECOND I SAW HIM ALL OF MY ANXIOUS FEELING WENT AWAY. I was completely calm. Completely.

He wanted to go talk somewhere else so we went to my car (with full intentions of going somewhere else but I didn't even start the car before His mouth started going)

He started by telling me he couldn't' go to California. That it wasn't right and he felt it would be very disrespectful of him to go. He said he doesn't know if the church is true or not but chances are that He won't ever go to the temple. He said he felt like it was better to call off the relationship now rather than get more feelings wrapped up. He said he's still going to try to get back into church and right now there is too much at risk (my eternal salvation) that would sway his decision and that he need to chose separate and alone. (all this said with tears streaming down his face)

I feel he's right. He needs to figure it out. at the moment, I was actually really nice to him and told him I understood and that if he needed anything I would always be here for him. I told him he was a jerk, but that he has to be true to his feelings...
***Today is the day after and I'm so upset. I miss him, his mom sits like 3 ft away from me. She came in and we had a good cry. My heart hurts... and I can honestly say I hurt now more that when I have called it off with any other guy... ANY other guy. (that's a big statement) I felt so safe with Ruben and respected, and we are so great together. I HAVE NEVER CRIED OVER A GUY BEFORE. and I think this is the first time a guy broke up with me.

That's the story, I don't want to talk about it, and I still have a little seed of hope in my heart. I'm grateful my prayer was answered, the worse would have been me say something hurtful and he use that against the church in the future. I felt lifted up and straightened, and I know that my Father in Heaven has me in his little hand. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have.

So I promised pictures!

2009-03-16T06:32:00.000-07:00

This is Ruben (again)... the face shot really doesn't do him justice, but I love that you can see his little dimple on his cheek... I love that weekends are so much more fun now that he's around. This Saturday marked our One month anniversary of being together. We spent the evening at the same place where we first went out... Club Manhattan: Latin Night.

Funny part is that he doesn't speak Spanish, and does not Latin dance (it's really bad) but this last Saturday was awesome!!! We met up with his brothers and sister and some of our friends... I had 2 Red bulls... and at one point was dancing on the couch with his sister in law. I'm trying to teach him how to be Latin... which is just funny. People always go to talk to him in Spanish and I have to whisper the English in his ear.

Ruben is in 2 bands. He plays heavy metal... BUT I walked in the other day and he was going to town on the Spanish guitar. IT was awesome. He writes his own stuff for his bands. he's very talented and a sucker for 80's rock... lol... I tease him relentlessly.

***Our story. Ruben's mom is my mentor at work. She and I have formed a very close bond. We were close for about 7 months, shopping, going out to lunch, She's kinda like my mom in Utah. Well... one day I Go to her house to make Sunday dinner and play cards (shout out to rummy) and Low behold Ruben answers the door... My interest peaks (he swears he knew I was the one when He first saw me and remembers my outfit even). We ate dinner and then he had plans so he left.

I kept telling his mom I needed to go over there again and get his number (the whole time he was saying the same thing to her but She insists on not getting involved) My life was so crazy with the Law school class, and calling's, temple, work, etc. that i literally had decided I wasn't dating anyone for a long time (at least until after law school) . SOOOOO then one night I wanted to go clubbing and needed a partner (I don't dare go to a Latin dance club with out an escort) and remembered Ruben. I called his mom, she gave me his number and we went out with my "cousins." The next day was Sunday, and he came over for dinner... then the following day his mom and I were shopping in park city when he called on me for a date. I had already made plans with his mom so... he took us both out and it was all 3 of us.

ever since that day we have seen each other everyday, and he is now looking to move his records to my ward. He works for the State in the Department of Alcohol and Beverage Control.

I feel very lucky, he is so good to me. everything is just working out... sorry if for allot of you a blog is how you find out... BUT life has been busy, and I'm so happy. So happy. We are going to Vegas (shout out to Sole), and then to Cali (shout out to my peeps in Cali) on March 25th. I'm really excited and he can't contain him self...

That's the story... Love you all!

Introducing...

2009-03-02T12:33:00.000-08:00

Ruben! This Pic isn't the all time best... it was at night, and my phone doesn't have the best of the best cameras, but at least you know he's real. He is my7"friend" (that I hold hands with and spend every second I have to spare; and even some seconds that I don't have to spare; quilty pleasure) I have spent almost every day with him since the last blog... (Our hot valentins day date). I like Him alot... and I guess it helps I'm so close to his mom... FUN!!!

So he and i will be going to California soon... we haven't pin pointed a date but with in the next couple weeks. We have a good time, and are taking things super super slow... (I have held his hand like 2 times I think...) he's a great guy and I feel lucky.

Thats it... thats all that is going on... Exciting huh?

Happy Happy!

2009-02-19T12:07:00.000-08:00

So this week has been really nice. Alot less stressfull!!!

I went to the provo temple and did some inititories... It made all the difference. I think I re-found the key to success... It was an awesome expereince. I went with a co worker of mine and I'm not going to lie- I was worried that it would be very non-personal. We went and there were so many people there to do ordinaces. I have never seen a temple so packed (Like 20 people waiting for endowments) So I was worried. BUT I got in there and it was very spiritual, and I'm really glad we decided to go. Very Glad.

I had my misconceptions of living in "Happy Valley" But it's been one of the best things for me. Life is going really well right now.

I have become really close to a lady I work with. She was actually my mentor, and now we're just buds. I really respect her, (she's my parents age!!) but we have a good time. I feel like she brings a perspective to my life I couldn't get anywhere else. She Has a son that is 29 and we have fun too... i don't know if I was "sent" to provo because of her, but I do know that I am a better person because she has taken me under her wing... If I could be half the woman I'd be in a good spot. Moment of Silence for Lamar please...

JOSH HAD JAW SURGERY... My poor nephew it was not fun.

It actually was really Aweful. Like really really aweful. My poor sister sat threw it with him, I didn't get up to there place until like a day and half later... but man o man. I felt for the kid. He couldn't eat anything... his jaw was wired shut. I was really really scared he was going to choak on something, so I treid to be glued to him as much as I could. I still am not the best at medical "Issues" I don't have the stomack for it. He is in high spirits now and doing well. I heart Joshy.

Valentines Day! My roommate made us yummy's and it was a success.

I went to a wedding of my other really close work friend... (pic's to come) so I had to rush feed the food to my self.

AFTER the wedding I went home and vegged a little bit, then off I went to the Dance club with Rubien... (the son of my BFF at work). We went Latin dancing and the night went well into the morning. I had a BLAST and adore the heck out of that Kid. It surely was a happy valentines day.

Class is in session...

2009-02-04T11:26:00.000-08:00

I started my Prep Course last night at BYU law school. It's not the law school just prep courses...

AND let me tell you what... I'm going to TEAR IT UP!!! I will look like this when I'm done... But I must say that I enjoy the class. I get to do all the logic problems I want AND I get to argue with people and be as crazy as I want as long as my arguements are structured correctly. LOVE IT. Let US PRAY FOR DUKE!!! (thats the goal)

East Side!

2009-01-28T12:45:00.001-08:00

After many requests I must complete my post for the East Side trip I was able to go on. (ok so only Anna requested it, but you know your all dieing to know how it went.
Let me just explain, I came home to Mountains of case work to do and even now and waiting for an interviewee to call... there may be pauses between the writing (good thing it's a blog huh!)

Day one: Fly into NC, stay in Burlington. Virg's dish washer died as I was flying there and apparently she had a flood. SO I got to see her dear Hubby Juany boy at the airport- not a big deal juan is probably one of my fav peeps, (as long as holly- shout out) We hug and talk and go to bed about 3:30 am NC time. (I'm exhausted!!)

Day two: Virg thinks it's so funny to wake my behind up and go to a Bo sue (sp?) class at her gym. Don't get me wrong... the class rocked, and if I wasn't completely exhausted I probably would not have flipped her off as much as I did (I love you virg)... after forever of being at the gym we stopped by the local TJ max and checked out the sales racks- LOVED IT.
- Virg also stated that he didn't feel comfortable going up to DC. Of course I was disappointed so proceeded to find a rental car... no big deal right? WRONG. Inaugural weekend... there are no cars. I finally found a car like 4 hrs out of DC (who cares) and they didn't take debit cards. SO i didn't get the rental car.
***Dinner that night we had awesome Wings at this southern restaurant where you could chose between 20 flavors and they were awesome!!!***
***We got home from Dinner at 8:00 and we all passed out. Clothes and all. I'm on my bed (which was divine) and john somewhere and holly somewhere else...

Day three: We decided we were going to go up to Virgs papi's house in Virgina (Waynesburo area)... then when it comes down to it... we decide Sunday is better. (Virg had to make quilts for the business)
**Off we go to Chapel Hill: UNC (the law school). At which point I received a tattoo on my face of a tar hill...(UNC pride!) Sherri Dew attending school there and talks about the "Tar Hills" in many of her talks. I LOVE CHAPEL HILL!!! It is so beautiful. After Chapel Hill he headed over to Durham where Duke University is, I really really wanted to see the University Library. The Campus was AMAZING!!! I fell in love! I took pictures, but they are on Virg's camera. I love love love that campus. We returned home and ate some real southern BBQ (amazing). And I passed out again... I really liked sleeping on my vacation.

Day three: Church day! We woke up and got ready for church (virg was pissed she could find the baby's pasafire) But we made it to Sacrament meeting. I looked Hot Sporting my newly found clearance Items. HOT I tell you! After sacrament We got in the car for our 3 hr trip Up to Virg's dads house in Virgina. I stayed at there house after Virgs wedding 7 yrs ago (can you believe its been that long holy, holy) I was as in love with virgina then as I am now. It's so awesome! Virgs family is very welcoming (with a big Turkey dinner- barf); but seriously they are so great it was a very nice Sunday.

Day four: MOnday morning: the best day of the YR: Martin Luther King Jr's Day!!! I slept in, (of course) and then ate some of Virg's granpa's homemade sausage and her dad's biskets and gravy... Yummy yummy. (Kinda like in the mission!!) we got everyone dressed up and headed over to Lexington, and Buena Vista. I LOVE the school Washington Lee, and VMI. They are so cool! There is so much history over there it's insane. We saw President Lee's family crept and went to the museum there. We also stopped by SVU the BYU of the East. It's awesome and beautiful. I love the ball room and main hall, it's a really old finishing school that has allot of history behind it. I was so Fascinated.

After Lexington we headed home where Virgs dad watched the kids and we went to set up a show for virg. (At least talk to the lady who was so nice) She too was a cali native and had fallen in love with the Shanadowa Valley... So we got the show figured out and watched American Idol.
After we got in that night I crashed early again- I had a long day ahead. I think Virg was bummed I like to sleep now.

Day five: Go into Charlottesville Virgina, LOVE IT. We ate Indian and watched the inauguration. I am not going to lie, a little knife was in my tummy I was really wanting to be there. But, the city was awesome, and the University was Amazing. I was Blown away... Seriously seriously love it.

Day six: we drive back to NC from Virg's dad's house. (I hate that his name is "Virg's dad" I don't think parents should be identified by who's parent they are, but I lack an other title.) We stopped and met John for Lunch in Greensborro (Shout out for Jason's Deli) and I said my good bye's to Juan there.
After virg took me to a museum in greensborro where the Sit in happened. 4 college guys who were african american sat on the stools in the restaurant that were reserved for Whites only. I am so fascinated by the civil rights movement. I can't wait for the day when I can focus more time and power on civil rights- until then I guess I'm stuck to museums. it's so motivating to me. I see people like those guys as modern day hero's. Just four guys who had the strength to stand up for what they believed in. I don't even remember there names- but I remember what they did for America and that to me is breath taking.

After the museum it was back to Burlington to fight the suit case/ weight limit. Stuffed everything away, and off to the airport we went. We stopped by the local grocher to pick up some Cheer wine (native soda you can only get in NC, dates back to 1917) and donuts (native to NC also).
I went to check my luggage and I was at 51.5 lbs. The lady said it was ok and hooked me up (or so I thought).
***The flight to Minneapolis was awful*** my music didn't work, and the guy behind me threw up. Every where. I think it was a 6 hr flight. Death to Cheryl.
**the next flight was ok, but I will never fly north west again... North west=CRAPPY.
***I got into the airport at one am (3 am my bodies time) Mike greeted me at the airport... with Dell Taco (the best part of the evening)...
BUT WAIT MY BAGS AREN'T THERE....
So I am livid, (of course no sleep) and the lady can't find my bags in the computer. At this point I am the biggest mean person ever (mike was laughing at me) I sat on a plane that was a full flight and smelt like Barf for HOurs, literally like 3 hours. **the lady smiles and tell me it will be delivered at my door the next day... PS I have work in a matter of hours, and am super stressed about that (my make up is in that bag and cheryl's skin is not getting better with acutane)

So thats my trip... It was great. You can see the common theme (UNIVERSITIES!!!) I came home and am now enrolled in the Ace pre lsat class. This course is hard core and has a really high law school enrollment rate of students (like insanely high). I will be taking classes on Tuesday, Thursday and a practice class on Sat. They expect 3 hrs of study a day for me to make the June Lsat. MY BEHIND IS OFFICIALLY BEING KICKED. I have a study group of law students as well as a mentor, (all included in tuition). This was suck a huge step for me. HUGE. I have always been pointing my self in this direction, but decided when I was back east that it needs to be done.
Before my vacation I was evaluated at work and given a really good evaluation. Basically I have 6 months more of probation, (means after the 6 months I'm pretty much set for a really long time), and promoted.

It made me feel better about taking on a huge thing like Law School prep. It's just a huge thing, and I really needed to feel committed to the cause. I think as a Mormon girl, I needed to get over the whole... you have to get married to be happy, and I think I'm there. I don't know the answer, i just know it feels right and when I think about it with my head I think there is no way in heck I can do it... But it feels right, and I am very motivated, and just like my mission or any other really big thing that has been the best thing for me... I have always felt super shaky about it. So I don't know- I don't know about a year down the road, but in 4 yrs I'll either be 31 with a law degree or with out, and I decide with. (thank you lin's for the words of advice, ir should I say thank you Bro Jolly... they were good... they made my blog)
Thats it my busy little life just got Insane. Like crazy insane. 4 yrs thats all... (Can you tell I'm still working on the mental thing)

Lova ya'll